-|once cadets. forever friends.]

2006-10-15T11:04:00.000+08:00

asdasd

2006-01-07T23:48:00.000+08:00

2006-01-02T01:08:00.000+08:00

wat an irony

2005-10-23T00:57:00.000+08:00

dont u tink life is such an irony? best of all, humans are such ironic creatures.

Do not do onto others if you do not wan others to do onto you

in modern society, i doubt this realli has much weight.

the past i did tat, but now, its coming bac to me. bleh.

i stopped, but did you?

camp... bleh. cant u jus god damn understand?

orienteering competition 2005

2005-09-18T23:31:00.000+08:00

revenge is sweet.

our OC team discussing tactics.

at the prize presentation...

cadets eagerly waiting

winning it!

the joy on their faces

at long last...

the medal...

back view, with my reflection...

orienteering competition 2005 champs!

revival

2005-09-15T23:16:00.000+08:00

okay! after a long abscene and the temporary closure of my blog, and some revamps, its back again!

haha...lets hope this blog lasts again...

2005-08-10T22:28:00.000+08:00

tmr is physics test! the last test of the term, b4 i get real busy again...

i rmb this period last year...the spirit so high. 25th september...orienteering competition. its back again.

jared...jiayou! you shall be taking them to glory again! next training onwards will be meng orienteering!

but first i shall hav to do a ppt tmr, to show the company. teaching them orienteering...haha.

my blogs are getting shorter and shorter...

dunno why, but ppl keep misinterpreting my blogs and tags...dunno why. am i tat complicated a person to understand?

a devil in disguise

2005-08-10T02:23:00.000+08:00

keep getting spamed by annoymous bastards... goddamnit

aniway... gotta do the evacuation plan le...now alreadi 2.28am. still hav to send to clarinda choh and hon.

still cant understand

2005-08-09T02:13:00.000+08:00

haiz... dunno why they still cant understand. after differing points of views, arguments, still cant get it. but nvm...i shant say anything. let jus see how big it blows up to be lyk.

jus one month into it, and damn im not used to it. argh...changed have i?? some obviously tink so. personally, i dun see any. just dun get it lah. maybe the clock should tick back one and a half month ago??? and maybe things wouldnt turn out tat way. its obvious rite? clear discrimination...but aniway nothing i can do bout it le. jus hav to heck and move on. got more impt things to settle and solve...

on a lighter note, jus came home from the carnival@marina, where there was the countdown. its cool! managed to see quite a number of singers, especially FIR!!! woots- missed them the last time they came, so im not going to miss this! and they rawk!!! haha. then the fireworks were awesome too... beautiful. first time i seen such amazing and extraordinary fireworks man. haha
thanks kaiqing and sinyee...and ks too! haha...

but still the problem remains unsolved.

trapped no one seems to find the key-

oh well..

2005-08-06T23:34:00.000+08:00

i hav totally nth to say.

humans...wat an ironic creature. full of emotions and feelings, contradictory yet never effective.

sometimes i wonder, it is really a right choice? a right decision? forgoing so much, yet nothing comes back. and support doesnt even come back. blehh. i might as well go die. a leader without support = a boat without water to support it.

looks lyk there's no choice. i rmb a certain phrase a certain someone said, and i knew i was wrong. but there's no other choice. im gonna pull thru. with or without support.

goddamnit.

its me again.

fuck

at long last, its friday

2005-08-04T23:33:00.000+08:00

phew...this week was hell man. and i mean HELL!

but aniway, still managed to solve some burdens!
1. tat bastard's problem is solved
2. mrp is done
3. onli 1 more test
4. paulho seems fine
5. ndp is going on fine

yeah!!! tmr will be maths test, but setter wunwl, so...shall heck abit.

ndp is soo soo soo soon!!! argh! imagine a shorty on tat day giving command!

wtf is this

2005-07-31T02:29:00.000+08:00

my whole weekend is screwed thanks to a single bastard. thanks a lot man. its 2.30 and i have to wake up at 5.30 tmr. thanks man. my hw is untouched.
fuck you

kawalan kehormatan!

2005-07-28T22:59:00.000+08:00

kawalan kehormatan akan meng jalan lalu, dalam masuk cepat, bekerat kekenan bertiga-taga, kekenan pu-sing!

haha...i will be shouting this command tmr during reheasaral man... aniway. its going to be friday again! haha

and i can forsee a veri screwed week ahead. damn. 4 tests next week, coupled together with ncc trainings. oh man. and this weekend wouldnt hav much time to spare either! but im alreadi prepared for this, so...lets jus heck bout it!

im falling asleep as i type this.... dunno wats wrong with me nowadays. either im lazy, or im dying soon. jus keep sleeping and sleeping and sleeping. during lessons, sleep. recess, sleep. on the bus, sleep. do hw oso sleep. jus cant stop feeling tired! and this reali hav had drastic effects lyk tons of hw tat are overdue, and topics in chem and physics tat im still confused up to now. cos i practically jus slept thru the lessons mah... and nowadays i sleep earlier, but in the end wake up later should feel more refreshed! but in the end, i feel even more tired! imagine sleeping 12hs at nite and the next day still can sleep on the bus. tats wat happen during racial harmony day. slpt 12hs the nite b4, but still slpt throughout the tour.

but aniway, this shant affect me too much.

kawalan kehormatan masuk baris!

oh wat a screwed education

2005-07-26T22:49:00.000+08:00

singapore education sucks, its crap. there's just no grounds for optimisim. the education here at hwachong is also crap. integrated programme is screwed. seriously screwed. oh man i feel lyk writing an expository on this man...hmm maybe i should just do it over the weekend. im slowing giving up on studies alreadi. i no longer see any point in studying...all thanks to this highly screwed education system. you dun get to learn anything at all from this environment. haiz... so y continue wasting time on such meaningless things? might as well use this time to realli learn things that are feasible and can be applied to reality...

aniway today's ihc test was still okay, but i dun expect to do well. since when have i expected to do well for ihc. ihc is practically the one where everyone dies...so heck liaoz. then tmr got english compo test. sianz...tests one after another. i dunno whether i should study for english. have not started revision yet and now its alreadi going to 11 and i feel sleepy liaoz. even if study, got wat to learn? just the points onli wat, but tat one on the spot crap oso can one mah... maybe i will just read the notes and essays a little bit to refresh my memories. okay shall do tat after i finish blogging.

im getting so sick and tired of things alreadi. at home in schoool, all the same. loads of hw untouched, yet continue accumulating. mrp not even done yet.

ndp2005

2005-07-25T22:51:00.000+08:00

ndp is approaching soon and jumbled together with a series of tests and tests = a very screwed term. but aniway, i heck liaoz. me and weizheng have agreed that the school's education is crap and its totally screwed. no point putting in so much effort when you dun realli learn anything from it at all. all these useless crap arent even applicable to real life...haiz.

but anyway as i said, ndp is approaching and i haven even got my lines yet!! argh how am i gonna memorize everything! haha. but cant wait for ndp...and the pre-ndp trainings that are going to come. i tink the parts are gonna get spammed man...

tmr is ss test...looks lyk no point studying liaoz. haha

and tmr is half day...but wat the hell la, 11.20 then dismiss. nvm the world has come to a realli realli crap state

should i put a title?

2005-07-23T01:13:00.000+08:00

what a day...haha. todae's training was generally okay. starting to get the hang of it liaoz!

and shiwei they all ar..keep pestering me to act gay. IM NOT GAY OKAY! just acting =D. and these type of things need gan3 qing2 then can do one...cannot shui bian shui bian suka suka do one. okay back to the main point

training seems to be getting more and more hiong. but the cadets seem to be taking it seriously, although i was appalled by the partAs. but lets see wat magic zhiyi can provide.

i tink my msg tis term will be screwed, but heck! i dun care liaoz

and to hell with a certain bastard. jus cant stand him liaoz.

2005-07-21T13:25:00.000+08:00

lol...now in school blogging. todae is racial harmony day = slack day!! lol

aniway ytd was TnF finals at chua chu kang stadium and as expected, we got double champs again!!! YEAH!! haha. and the organizers for TnF is crap. they suck!!! they totally cant organize man, and are obviously biased against our school. fuck them.
so we went to the stadium at 5.30am ytd to set the banners, and the next school, stnicks onli came at bout 8+ when our banners were more or less alreadi up! haha.

sianz sunday still hav to come back for some stupid shit. DAMN!

2005-07-18T21:44:00.000+08:00

hmm...dunno why i found the time to blog!

hcincc seems to be doing well so far... our new CO is quite zhaii! efficient!! finally i see some form of efficiency some where. aniway its confirmed! NCC is the Guards-of-Honour for NDP! yesh! so far so good! and all extra trainings have been approved! yeah man!

im gonna push the unit man! we will get back wat we deserve! gogogo!

i realize my posts getting shorter...maybe cos got nothing to blog except ncc! haha!

2005-07-17T00:21:00.000+08:00

tiring day it was...open house.

todae ncc set up a booth for open house...quite a successful one. the first project of the year! kudos to special projects! and this year's turnout was much better than the rest. many more parents came and it was much more organized. so basically we showcased all the awards, rifles and performances. i tink the main highlight was pds as all of them seem to be in awe at the 5kg mark4 rifles...seeing the performance on stage anyhow turn and toss and rotate...hahaz. aniway, next up: ANNUAL CAMP!!! gogogo!

for more pictures... go to http://community.webshots.com/user/hcincc_stan
**** latest! edited pic!!!!

haha since im so sian, shall pic some nice ones!

Our PDS!!!

holy jared rotating!!

guanchiang!!!!

group photo at the end!!!

him again!!!

another group photo!

2005-07-15T23:00:00.000+08:00

hmm...so the first training as officially ended. tired, veri tired i am. even though im not involved in any of the training, i feel tired. maybe cos its mentally exhausting? all i noe is that this is the start of my journey...the journey filled with obstacles along the way that we hav to overcome...

today had quite a number of screwups... haiz sad... shant tok bout it. lest others read bout it, especially some ppl. haha

aniway todae was oso pd day..dunno how my group faired...think still okay la. but chances of getting into the finals seem quite slim, but i wun expell tat thought!

tmr is open house. dunno how it will turn out lyk. hcincc is gonna shine!!! haha.

to all ncos out dere! we can do it!

hehex...some pics:

partCs

zhiyi & daniel1

jared & lujie!

jared & me!!

2005-07-12T23:36:00.000+08:00

hmm...im blogging again.

gonna miss school tmr morning. going to see the ortho... haah miss another of stevensu's practical. looking at this term's test schedules, feel lyk fainting liaoz. all cram up, all wat term test one. sianz. and im supposed to pia ace to max this term. sad case liaoz la

friday is gonna be the first official training man. and im starting to lyk paul ho. he's efficient and zai! jiayou! haha. i will be constantly bugging him, so lets hope he dun get sick of me! =D

hehex change my blogskin...i lyk this picture a lot!!! so nice!!! haha. my desktop background oso veri nice!!!!

2005-07-10T21:41:00.000+08:00

finally its here. its going to begin. and its not going to stop.

after a long absence, im gonna blog again. i can forsee that this blog is gonna be quite dead in the near future, so better blog when i have the time.

Last friday was ORD. Basically, it means that HCINCC is officially ours. For us to lead it towards honour and glory. What a heavy burden, but we will do it!

Come to think of it. As i look back at my ncc life, wat a life... i remember the times in partA, where i was scared of trainings, scared of NCOs. I wanted to pon every training, but fear kept me going... it was the darkest period of my ncc life my whole partA life was crap. total crap. then came my first residential camp. tat was the turning point. Camp then, was hell. After day 1, i was alreadi shivering. From fear, and from muscle aches. I had never expected tat to happen. NEVER.

After camp, i began to train up. Doing pumpings everyday, so tat i will never have to take such shit again, and be the wimp i once was. Then i got to know jared, ks, shuoxian. They brought me up, picked me to my feet. They made me enjoy ncc. Life was much better after tat. instead of shunning trainings, i was enjoying it! i yearned for every friday to come. tat was the start of a very fruitful experience as a cadet life. PartB came and left, and lujie took over. you can say that is when we climaxed.

partC life, full of shit to take, but these shit felt good. the bond, that feeling that cannot be expressed in words. Fuelled me up, made me want to strive. It was then, that the thought of NCOship came into me. I was going to aim for ACSM! take the partCs, and make them worthy ncos, jus lyk lujie was doing.

then came the decision. the decision that would nevertheless have tremendous impact. 11slc or spec. i will never forget that day... 12th june 2005, 2330h. That day, i was burned down, and reborned from the ashes. lujie, i will never forget your words. i will strive hard no matter wat. tat nite, was the nite that i truly let go of everything. every single emotion kept up within me, jus flooded out. the emotions were just too much, for little me to handle. but now, i have cleared up. after tat nite, i started again, with refuelled energy, confidence and motivation. i made the choice, and i wun regret it. once again, lujie, without tat nite, i will still be lost.

spec course. i dunno wat i was lyk to my fellow platoonmates, but i was slowly picking myself up. after spec course and followed by immersion. that is where the change occured. the change in mindset. Should i still be ACSM? all my hopes of ACSM were wavering. with the new ruling and structure, the thought of CSM came. this might be a chance where i can realli do wat i want, lead the unit for the best. but still, it was shocking. All the plans for ACSM were shattered. What am i going to do as a CSM? i never knew that the NCOs wanted me to be the CSM.

Now that we have taken over, im slowly sinking in. into the role of the CSM. much awaits the unit, and i will have to strive. hcincc, is going to regain its past glory. we will do it.

i will never forget your words. now its time for us to put things right. hcincc...is for forever
for the best...for my friends...for the unit.
Strive, we must!

2005-06-20T21:28:00.000+08:00

day 1 of immersion over...

so it all turned out well...basically nothing much to comment on, so i shant.

well...can someone jus rid me of the life i have now. its crap. rubbish. fuck. why do i have to go thru every single day of this shit. noises ranting in my head...questioning me... its gonna burst soon...explode. the pressure is jus too much for me to handle! its accumulating, building up its forces, jus waiting for tat single moment when i lose control... damn.

its not school pressure. tat is nothing. its more than that. its squeezing the veri life out of me, draining me. how am i gonna survive, in this pressure-cooked life! every single second, day in day out, u face up to the life, u jus wanna give up to. jus stone and rot for eternity... who gives a damn. i have alreadi given up hope. on this pathetic, sick, disgusted life of mine.

but still, i have to portray the image ppl see me as... keep up wat ppl wan to look in me. its jus not fair. but wat can i do? jus live with it. continue being the actor on stage, changing ur moods to suit watever is thrown at u. u are supposed to show ppl, wat they expect of u, nvr to give up. but deep inside, its all over. the mask changes, but the wearer dun. beneath that thin layer of everchanging skin, lies a rotten, dead soul... drained of life, by the life in which he lives in...

its the end...

end...

2005-06-19T11:25:00.000+08:00

its all over...

is it all...or are we jus friends
is this how it ends...with a simple telephone call
you leave me here with nothing at all

everything have to come to an end...and this is now it ends...

the seeds of hard work over 6 months have blossomed in these 4 days... jus these 4 days. these 4 days have been a roller coaster ride for me...

mixed feelings... never have i felt such happiness, sorrow, sadness, helplessness b4.

thank you. i luv u, ot. i luv u, 11slc...

thank you, lujie. you brought me up to my feet when i was stuck...stuck in the pit. u brought me to my senses, untangled my soul... u allowed me to free myself, enabled me to let go. b4 tat, i felt so lost, confused...misery. there's jus to much emotions... i cant express myself. tat nite, all you said will remain in my heart. i dint say much, but ur words were enough to heal me... tat was the onli time i broke down, and cried... u allowed me to release all tat was stuck within, gave me back my life, my passion, my hope. sorri if i shocked you with my tears, but i just couldnt control myself. ncc, slc, frens, family, life. all my feelings were let loose... i promise you, i will keep going strong... for the future of hcincc, i will not fall again... THANK YOU MASTER!!

how i wish 11slc would never ever come to an end... but it has ended. jus as ruixiong said, its time to get back to reality. get back... how?? i jus feel...feel so empty. 11slc has came and gone jus lyk tat. its as if a part of me jus went missing... and i would never get it back. going to school every single day in the holis, seeing ur ot for more than 12hs a day... its jus so hard to let go... so hard to get back to life... life without slc, without the ot. even as i woke up todae, the first thing on my mind was the ot...

thinking back, why am i feeling so?? i wasnt even here! seeing the ot cry as the finale drew to a close, i jus couldnt feel anything inside me. this was their convention, their success. its isolation for me... its the convention tat counts, tat the participants realli enjoy and learn...

thank you again, slc... there's jus too much to say, to express. but its all over... over. as abrutly as it came, it ended.

suayu.guanyu.chiajone.
jerry.anna.yanhan.grace.zhenjie.chinseng.melvin.lynn.ziyang
shiwei.jijo.jianrui.kristin.choonyen.jinliang.
jianyi.ruian.jiawen.michelle.chengliang.

i luv u all!

2005-06-14T20:50:00.000+08:00

wat can i say...

todae hcincc rawks again... domination! 3/6 + BOS CPL WONG JOON WEE! haha...tmr gonna rawk even more if jared gets BOS man... HCINCC RAWKS! hahaz...so basically today was mutual test la...tink i fared quite okay la. and i managed to get the clt's attention! he noes my name now!!! first i was called up together with 5 other guys for a sort talking session tat sounded lyk an interview. then after dinner was called up again this time one on one...man the feeling is funny. i must get best cadet!!!

stuck in a room, 4 walls closing down on me. everyday i face these four walls, trying to push them apart, but still it drains me. i dunno how long i can hold on. why dun i jus give up...and stop facing life the way ppl expect stanley to face. maybe i should jus seat back and relax... i can imagine myself term 3, concentrating purely on ncc and leting my results slip...definitely. i wun have any interest in it. tats 1 wall. everyday, facing them, and getting blasted for no reason, tats the 2nd wall... im jus a single person. i cant create another me. i have onli 24h a day and i can onli have 100%. wat can u expect me to do! im sorri if this hurts, but it isnt even in my priority list. hope u respect this...tats the 3rd wall. facing life...tats the last and final wall.

i dunno how long i can last b4 i finally break down. breakdown and let everything lose, ease the pressure within me. how long more...HOW LONG MORE!!!! damn.

im jus an insignificant bastard ranting bout here... why? cos im unable to say it out face to face. im resorted to typing infront of my inanimate computer screen. the world is so insensitive...many ppl are dying jus becos of this... mine jus this tiny speck of life.

how can i prove my true x-istence? it seems my life is being controlled by others. then wat life is this?? am i destined to be so?

2005-06-13T21:54:00.000+08:00

day 1...over. 11slc & spec...

spec was crap todae. other than a sort of HCI domination, it was a waste of time. basically, we managed to get 3 out of 6 section ICs available and even the BOS was CPL WONG JOON WEE! not to forget during the short QnA session, HCI spammed the LTs... sengyeow ah!

orientation day of slc is over in a flash. good job progs! looks lyk u managed to cover up everything...according to jinliang the delegates were hyped up!! as for the shopping at suntec, indians were wreaking havoc again...but im sure u will handle them better tmr nite!

was on my way back after spec, and at yiochukang mrt, saw a student wearing the 11slc t-shirt!!! it must be a success! concept, tmr's ur day! u gonna rawk on! jiayou!

if u dare think of slc, quit spec course immediately

as long as ur heart is with us...we will always be together...and you will always be with slc

u ppl are FORCED to talk ... fine den

wat can i say... 3 different smses. 3 diff problems. y cant ppl jus understand me! am i supposed to suit every one's needs!!! im not obligate to do anything! argh...maybe i should jus give up on such crap. y should i trouble myself, and make my life so crappy! maybe i should jus concentrate on studies...back to being a damn mugger. life was at least better then. there's jus to much tat ppl expect from me, and when i cant live up to it, im blasted down to hell...tats life. i cant play so many roles at the same time, but ppl jus cant understand. argh...

tmr im gonna pia...im not gonna miss 11slc for nothing. i must jiayou...i will.

fuck off

2005-06-11T00:30:00.000+08:00

11th june. 11slc. jus 2 more days. how i wan time to stop!!!

wat a fun day we had todae... if onli tat can last. wun noe if tat will continue even after 11slc. all e days spent piaing, having the same poolside lunch, the late night dinners, and our fav jaga... i wan tat to last 4eva! how i wish, seriously wish time would stop.

it seems lyk ages since i last spoke to my ncc frenz... or speak anything bout ncc. i dunno wat they are feeling now. but i jus dunno wat to do, or wat to say. i find it difficult to put in my best for spec, with my mind set on 11slc. maybe i shouldnt even told lujie i want to go spec, let someone else go. guess its too late now. im sorri if i have disappointed you guys due to my lack of involvement, but i jus cant put my heart to it jus lyk b4...

the days are ticking...11slc is approaching. argh!!!! if onli i were not from ncc. IF ONLI. damn bloody spec course. seeing the ot so happi together, striving for 11slc, all the sweat and tears on slc, everyone having milo dinosaurs after working the whole day on convention handbook, it pains to be missing slc. it hurts.

suayu.guanyu.chiajone.jerry.zhenjie.melvin.chinseng.yanhan.grace.lynn.ziyang.anna.shiwei.jijo.jinliang.kristin.choonyen.jianrui.jianyi.michelle.jiawen.ruian.chengliang.
11slc ot jiayou!!!

2005-06-09T23:46:00.000+08:00

dunno wats wrong with me. haiz. todae had to go for some ncc mutual cum spec briefing. i tink my attitude sucked then. i dunno why, but i felt tired and disinterested as soon as i sat down. but after tat, the ncc stuff and back to slc, i slowly became better. argh wats wrong???

soon, in bout 15mins, its gonna be friday. then sat, sun and monday. 11slc is jus 3 days away. everyday i go to school, everyday i come home more depressed. still lamenting why spec has to be the same date. i dun wan go spec!! 11slc is jus so close...so so so close.

how i wish i could jus freeze time, or make myself split. y have it to be lyk tat.

11slc gonna rawk!! OT jiayou!!! wear the OTTEE with pride, dignity!

2005-06-08T22:42:00.000+08:00

im tired. i doubt i can hold on any longer. collapsing.

been rather busy recently, combined with all the crap i have to face to in life. i jus wan to die. everyday having to face such a life. god damn it. y cant anyone understand me?? some things u say, can jolly well kill me. i noe my priorities well, and u dun make decisions for me.

this is for suayu:
if i u ever read this, which i doubt so. im realli sorri. sorri for letting every single one down. i tried my best, gave in all i got these past few weeks, but i noe its never enough. i dun wan to go for some stupid spec course, 11slc is still in my heart. but its an obligation. i noe how much 11slc means, it is so very dear to me too. either way, im hurting both parties. i have no other choice. i noe this is stupid, saying so much crap. everytime hearing ppl saying:" oh! but u are not going slc anyway". that sucks. u tink i dun wan to go for slc?? but looks lyk fate doesnt allow me so. it hurts everytime ppl say tat. sometimes its jus a remark, but it means a lot. i wouldnt slog for 6 months and not want to see slc succeed. i have let the ot down, and i hav nothing to say bout it. 11slc will succeed. jiayou!

haiz. i had enough of ppl questioning my priorities. everyday hearing ppl say:"slc so impt meh!","wahlao! dun go slc la!". please, i can handle it. i hav alreadi given u my word. i noe im not giving my best now, but after this, i wun. tats onli if i survive. its damn irritating having ppl breathing down ur neck every single day.

its hard having to face up to the world, and still keep smiling. its such a fake front. how often have i put up a fake front? i have lost count. maybe bottling up everything isnt good, but its too late now. ppl have became acustomed to such a fake front, that once something changes, they will either reject it or take it as a joke. its stifling my life! argh!!

it seems my body is deteriorating by the day, unable to keep up to life's bombardment. changing faces is no easy task. with so many things surrounding, to face up to, so many commitments to fulfil. damn. i guess there's no turning back now. it seems to me tat everything is a dull. see no point in life. im gonna explode anytime soon. anytime.

11slc jiayou! you can do it!

2005-06-02T23:33:00.000+08:00

ahh... jus came home after 4 long and tiring days. torture some may say, but tats wat ncc camp is all about. basically every ncc camp is different; no 2 camps are the same. this camp - a whole new experience for us; taking up leadership roles...and hell did we screw them up.

okay basically first day was okay...okay in a sense tat it was expected. started off quite badly... a nearly 2h muster parade. imagine standing motionless for tat long, under the hot sun, ur feet getting numb by the moment, and all the ICs are screwing up the attendance. other than that, i oso took the partBs for the 1st time, for drills. haha, wat can i say?? all i noe is tat they are veri hard to motivate. throughout the whole drill session, the face all sianz sianz one, but still can give good drills, though quite inconsistent. mus improve ah! tat nite bunk check was oso quite okay la. basically it was quite slack, given its the first day, and we got --- none other than wanpeng!!! tat monster siaz. first thing he did when he came into room was:"shiwei! knock it down! 80!". so after the beloved bunk check, we had wargames!!! hahaz was a guai lan match la. so end of activity most were dead tired, but we still had to go for admin time, where we review our performance for the day...ended our day at bout 2am.

2nd day, things started to get more interesting. so muster parade improved, but hell it still took a long time. nothing new la, other than doing loads of cheers during part activity, and taking the partBs for arms drills. todae they somehow improved a little, with some laming form the team... looks lyk tat's the onli way! 2nd nite bunk check was still acceptable la, not hiong, but not slack... and as usual, 2nd day ended earli but we had our admin time...

3rd day. the most dreaded day of all. most of the partCs were dead tired alreadi by now. can see us struggling to keep awake during muster parade man. muster parade was considered okay tat day la. so lets see, last part activity with partBs. we had ifc, and i tried very hard to liven the mode by being lame. veri lame. hope it had some sort of effect. but tat day was crap. started to have fever, and my throat hurt. okay so after tat was bunk check. consider it the most hiong bunk check of camp. did bout 180 pumpings in total i tink, but our bunk was generally quite clean. then solo nite, the screwed up event. shant elaborate, but partCs are terribly sorri for our actions. slpt at bout 5.30am tat nite, or morning.

last day of camp. nothing much happened. after break camp had spec interview, and i tink i somehow screwed it up la. first qn i alreadi stone dere liaoz... so much to tink about! slc...spec...haiz. but spec it shall be! sorri 11slc! okay so interview lasted till bout 3.30pm, when we finally had our lunch man. then continue with AAR until bout 6.30...and after tat i still had to go for 11slc meeting. haiz...and now im at home, concluding my 4 days in school.

partCs, spec to be. are we worthy? i dunno, but i believe we can be! partC jiayou!!!

2005-05-30T00:14:00.000+08:00

see my background pic, tats wat im feeling rite now. praying. praying hard for spec to change their bloody date.

okay tmr is ncc camp. finally

sat was 1st fac's roleplay. gd job concept!!! 11slc can pull thru!

let the fun begin...

2005-05-25T23:22:00.000+08:00

19 days to 11slc...bah.

todae me ks and yuhan took partB pds for training... dunno what both them felt, to me: that was a serious flop. end of qn. that sucks. first experience as NCO was bleh...but nvm at least now i hav a new view on it...what can i say!!! compare last training and this, quite obvious rite?? and we dint manage to change it...

powerhungry-ness, the feeling is back again...can sense it...

camp is coming...hope i dun screw up again

2005-05-24T23:31:00.000+08:00

11slc is drawing nearer...the more i tink i wun be able to attend it, the worse i feel. bah

last week of school liaoz...time to rejoice? dun tink so. loads of stuff coming up, and worse of all, im feeling more tired than usual... my msg this term is quite screwed up, but heck bout it.

2 main goals for me now: 11slc & ncc. ncc, its time for a new begining, a new journey heh! 11slc, the last stretch to pia finish...

SMRP, another thing to worry about...totally stagnant now. i cant find time for SMRP, and the members of the grp aint functioning together! haiz...

this year seems to be quite screwed for me other than ncc...maybe thats wat every sec 3 goes thru...

2005-05-16T21:26:00.000+08:00

11slc ot jiayou!!!! 28 days more!!! we can do it!

okay back from OBSabah liaoz. after resting for 1 day, still tired. dun wan to go school la. haiz. nvm

11slc!!! we can do it! yes we can man. last stretch going to pia!

dun feel lyk blogging bout OBSabah leh...loads of things to write. but PARANG rawks! and andrew too!!!

2005-05-01T22:01:00.000+08:00

okay i shall blog b4 i start revising for chem! crap chem term test. i shall keep tomorrow free for maths and mutuals, plus a bit of ihc ihe. the nite now will be kept for soccer and chem! i mus master chem b4 i slp tonite!!!

okay so basically the whole todae i was slacking! learn a bit of ihe ihc, then dunno y my body jus wan to stop doing anything. so i stoned! crap afternoon went gym with kelvin till now lor. haiz so sianz.

okay i shall start my revision now!! gogogo!

hehex, slpt at 5am last nite...shhh

2005-04-30T23:51:00.000+08:00

feeling so tired now. had a whole whole day of ncc, and with tat type of sun. csm coming liaoz, 1 more week. pds performance, gonna rawk! hahaz.

todae pds training was veri fun! practised and practised and practised e performance again and again and again! only thing tat was crap was the damn sun. wearing a shirt beneath e full L, so damn freaking hot. but it was worth it! went to kap for lunch, 2h break leh! hahaz. unprecendented siaz. so after tat it was more training, plus tok cock sesssion, and the 12 100plus! so after tat 4plus, went to play soccer! long time since i last played, and as i can see, i sucked. hahaz. i cant play field for nuts now. but nvm i will try again. maybe todae no form! haha... so after awhile, we went to play street! and i improved and got my form! played again e groups of JC, and i managed to score! woot! played against ncos, and scored too!! yup, see my form is back for street.

now, legs ji tired. walk oso walk so slowly. effects of playing too much soccer siaz.

next week killer siaz. got so so so many things to do and new things jus keep appearing to cram up tat 4 days. lets see: 2 class tests, 2 common tests, SMRP, ncc drill mutual test, preapre m16 and IFC mutuals, pack for sabah, PDS performance. siaoz!

2005-04-29T21:00:00.000+08:00

fuck all.

wat e hell is wrong with this fucking world.

wat is wrong with this fucking life.

nothing.

pissed.

why? dun ask me...u dun need to noe.

jus me and my fucking life.

2005-04-26T18:08:00.000+08:00

im amazed that i could even find time to post this. aniway tmr would be start of a series of tests, tests and tests for the next 2 weeks. crap. and it dint help that slim came into class todae sayin tat thursday had eng compo and fri had functional writing. go and die la.

aniway im glad i scored in e physics term test. 44/50!!! so happi. and e retest dint help me much though i heard of tales of 0 to 9 marks for retests. if onli i studied. erpx

jus came home from ncc hq and as usual their efficiency was crap. draw pds uniform and go for a breifing took so long. and the briefing was pure pure crap. dint even need to attend in e first place. as for e pds uniform? we shall see. wasnt the one we wanted to draw, but nth we can do now. lets await the reaction of the hci and ny ppl when they see our outfit. hahaz

okay going to pia bio and physics now. jus realized todae i screwed up the dates of almost all tests. bio i tot was tmr but is thursday. but nvm, e eariler u study, e better! =D

woot!

2005-04-21T23:59:00.000+08:00

crap. 1 more min to friday. and im supposed to decide whether i should go for 11slc or spec. argh!!! i still cant decide! both equally impt, both equally essential! rite now, im jus dragging time hoping that our dear HQ would once again change the dates for spec. HOPING, and praying so. haiz...in e end if i go for spec, sorri suayu and the ot. if i go for 11slc, sorri partC.

friday oso means the end of the week. bleh, meaning that next week im screwed. 4 tests, and i haven revised finish any of them, and its quite impossible for me to cram everything in the weekends seeing that my whole saturday is goone. haiz. school sucks. been fallling asleep a lot during lessons lately. todae was e worst. during maths wunwl lesson, ron said i was sleeping so obviously! meaning wunwl would have seen that! argh. i mus try to keep awake! endure! but dunno y tis whole week i have been damn tired, eyes bloodshot almost everyday. nevermind, after 2 more weeks, off to sabah i will go. maybe i shall jus camp dere 4ever and stay in seclusion =p

so how?? slc or spec!!! damn.

so many things to do, so little time, i tink im stressing myself up. even weizheng says my attitude changed, and my temper got worst. argh!!! fuck all e stupid school life! nvm it seems this is e onli suitable place for me to vent my anger. who actually noes me? heck bout tat la. life jus sucks. there's no point in it! i hav been wasting 15 years of my life and i can see another 6 or 7 years that would be wasted in the future. Sometimes i seriously wish to jus get e hel out of here, maybe head of to somewhere more relaxing. thought of japan would be a nice place (BoA???) haha. aniway maybe dere's no point grumbling everything here but not being able to do anything to change e future...

todae we had a veri interesting talk by lim swee say = earning a living, living a life. he mentioned that we must find satisfaction in our lives. i dun see any in mine now. all are onli short term ones that never lasts. maybe there is no satisfaction in life afterall, but is jus a belief people cock up to fool themselves, provide them with a place to console their hearst. im not gonna do tat. if life sucks, it sucks. face it!

2005-04-18T22:47:00.000+08:00

hmm...bout 1 and a half month to 11slc. excited? yes. worried? definitely. why the hell does spec course clash with 11slc. haiz. hoping that our veri inefficient hq will change the dates again. i dun wan to miss any of them. but if the dates dun change, i tink, i tink i should be going for 11slc. sorri to disppoint ppl lyk jared, but it should be 11slc. if someone can somehow convince me otherwise, then maybe i will change. i dun wan disappoiint suayu and the ot. haiz. heck bout this

life sucks. its crap. whats the point of living. have u ever asked urself, for the past 15 years, are u happi? 15 years, bout 1/5 of your life gone liaoz. did u realli live that 1/5 of ur life to e fullest. i dint. all i do is study study study and more study. thats sickening. faacing ppl lyk slim everyday saying its stfling. stfu. u tink its stifling for us, and when u pile all e work on us not stifling ah! u have ur family ur blah blah blah. we dun have ah! despise all u wan, but english will onli hav that little place in my heart. im still a maths and sciences person.

aniway there's no point saying all this now. jus live life as you can. life is nothing but crap.

all sucks!

2005-04-17T21:30:00.000+08:00

hmm. what exactly is life. i been quite emotional this weekend i tink.

what exactly is human rights. do we need to care about others when we do things? dont we jus report to ourselves?

PARENTS, what exactly do they want. they expect us to give in to their every demand. I havve brains, i reason out. you call us disrepectful, rude. cant I jus say wat i wan??? its MY view, i have the rights to air it.

respect is earned, nvr given, nvr a must. u wan me to respect you, then show that u deserve this respect. u tink u are always right. u dun listen to reasons. when i reason out with you, you scold me, that im not respecting you.

respect is also mutual. respect me, i respect you. how u expect me to respect you, when u treat me like a caged animal.

u have your space, i have mine. respect it. i have my rights to keep anything i wan secret, and you are in no position to pry into it. push me to far, u get it.

Yo whats up dude? The ceiling hor!

2005-04-15T22:25:00.000+08:00

Hello, this blog is a bit dead so I am here to revive it. Let's do cpr shall we? Eh someone help leh, performing oral sex with a blog is not exactly a very good idea. :)

So let's add some excitement here by telling lame jokes! :D

Once, there was this explorer who saw this very very very very very very rare worm. He decided to bring it back home so he wrapped wrapped wrapped wrapped wrapped the rare worm up. When he went home, he unwrapped unwrapped unwrapped unwrapped the thingy but the worm was gone! So he got so sad he went to the toilet. He turned on the tap, guess what came out?

Ans: Water

Ok, another one, there were three people dancing hiphop on a tree, guess a chinese word.

Ans: 桑, Three people saying "yo!"

Next up, there was this girl who loves to imitate a fan so she walk around like this--> *blows straight* So, one fateful day she was blowing in the shopping centre as usual, her mum got so agitated she hit the girl's head. Guess what the girl did?

Ans: She blew like this--> *turns her head to left and right as she blows* Common sense right, when you press the button behind your fan, what does it do?

Hmm, lets talk about this, no no lets talk about that. "That", is a four-letter word as can be seen, nah it doesn't start with F and it does not end with a K. "That" has a th-sound, so you don't pronounce it as "tat". Understand? I can see that you have understooded, very good, give yourself a pat on your back. "That" is to refer to something that is nearer to the listener than the speaker. "That" is not an adjective, definitely not a verb, not a pronoun, then what ar? noun?

Ok, enough of "that", how about this, i challenge you to teach me biology about the human anatomy. Since young, i have a strong interest in ounts. r wonderful human body. We were so small when we were a foetus, but now some of us are like giants. Amazing? Horrifying? Amusing? Entertaining?

Don't you think the sky should be pee-ing now, thunder god should also play his drums and moneky king should be playing with his jin1 gu1 bang4. Boohoohoo, I want rain!

:)

Hope you had fun reading this entry. I think you didn't get brainfreezed because it is NOT supposed to be lame. Do you see any traces of limbs around? No right?

2005-04-15T22:14:00.000+08:00

pissed.

2005-03-16T23:03:00.000+08:00

okay we are into the middle of the holidays liaoz. doesnt seem like a holiday to me though. I have been going to school everyday liaoz...and for e whole day too. quoting from someone:"HOLIDAY homework is an oxymoron". I truely agree with that. when is a holiday realli a holiday. so far e onli holiday tat is a real holiday to me was after PSLE. argh, maybe that is wat life is about.

a little story i would lyk to share, its in chinese though:
朋友送给我一个蝴蝶的茧。据说那会变成一只紫色的美丽蝴蝶。
一天，那蛹破了一个小口，我坐在桌子前，仔细地看着蝴蝶宝宝费力地挣扎着，想要破茧而出。好像母亲分娩一样，那个看不清形状的小生命折腾了好几个小时，还是没有什么进展。又过了一会，它好像筋疲力尽，停了下来。我决定帮它一把，于是把剩下的那部分剪开了一道口。小蝴蝶终于完全出来了。
然而，它没有像我预料的那样展翅飞翔。它战战兢兢地抖动着一对皱巴巴的翅膀，身体还像一个肿肿的小虫。它始终没有飞起来。它一直在我的桌子上，带着那对紫色的、萎缩的翅膀和一个肿胀的身体哆嗦着蠕动，直到死亡的来临。
后来，从朋友那里得知，正是我的好心和性急断送了蝴蝶美丽的生命。因为，自然设计的每一步都有其存在的意义。在蝴蝶破茧而出的挣扎中，它会把身体里多余的水分挤到翅膀里，这样，当它终于自由的那一刻，它才能拥有轻盈的身体和丰盈的双翅。
我望着花园里飞舞的蝴蝶，突然真正明白为什么有人说痛苦的历练往往是人生不可或缺的一部分。———没有痛苦和奋斗，人生永远不可能完整，就像没有挣扎的蝴蝶，永远不可能飞翔。
a seem to lyk tis story a lot, maybe cos its so close to our hears. i dunno, jus go tink bout it la.

life is life. life is not life without life. live for life, dun have life to live

2005-03-13T22:23:00.000+08:00

okay its been 1 week since i updated so thats wat im going to do now.

the past week was sabbaticals week and my sabbaticals was so veri slack. Techniques in Microbiology by our Dr. yipcw. and y i say is so so so slack? cos our recess was lyk 1h and 45 mins lor. then we used this time to play soccer! hahaz play street court with kengwei, junjie,nicholas etc. had a veri good week. until friday that is.

so fri me,kengwei and junjie were supposed to do a ppt on Identification of Anthrax. so thursday, i pia lyk siaoz as soon as i reached home. then its was lyk wat e hell, onli i 1 person doing e whole ppt lor. damn. i reserached, summarized and put into ppt lor. and e info was lyk so cheam and i had to put into simple english! then at night both came online then ask wat they supposed to do etc...veri fun hor! whole day slack then come ask wat they supposed to do. nvm maybe its my fault for not letting them do anything la. okay but thats not the point. the point is that i was damn busy that night la. wat hav to do tis, pack my stuff for proed induction camp, get e logistics, and prepare no.3! in e end slpt at lyk wat 1-2+.

so friday ppt went quite well. they seem impressed by it, onli thing is that timecontrol not good. cant blame us mah!we jus got too many info that we need to share with e class leh. okay so that went pretty smoothly. yup. so wholeday ppt till i slpt. realli slpt during ppt and yipcw dint notice it =) okay so after that was c&c la. and i was one of e few chosen to take partBs la. aniway so i went there gave them drills and had uniform check. ernie:"ur uniform this week not up to standard! can be improved". lyk wat e hell la, wat time was i preparing my no.3? 1+ leh...eyes realli tat good la. but nvm i shall take tis as positive comment la so nvm. aniway wat i hav to say bout that is that partBs drills seriously suck. no offense meant but they NEED to buck up. if there is any partBs reading this, which i dun tink so, ur part has lots of potential, but if ur basic drills are not good, u are SCREWED. i cant deny that i would lyk to take partC ps (now partB), but with this standard cant accomplish much wan. so they had better buck up. okay so i left training early, cos need to open rooms for induction camp etc la. in case u dint noe, its ProEd Council Induction camp la! basically jus to let all e councilors bond together etc. so tat night's plan was to go KAp eat and interact la, which was quite successful. the OT was all tired after that la. and the OT was made up of the exco comittee.

so next day saturday, things start to get worse. i dun mean that the camp got worse. but basically it got worse for exco.. not that the camp was screwed up watsoever but cos of something internal that concerned the exco. the main thing was, we(exco and 4 of us in slc) were screwed. its not impt by who, but why is such a thing happening? so screwed that day, that 4 of us had to hav a meeting during induction camp to settle the dispute. things were not going as expected by both parties. the reaction was totally different. so conflict between us and them, and even an ultimatum and threats were given by them. what can we say? how u expect us to noe wat u mean when u treat us lyk tat? first reaction would definitely be confusion then pissed off mah. the way u expressed it is different from what we think! yes, we noe u are trying to help here, but why tis way? aniway, so after tat incident, we were somehow thinking so how? so in e end, we settled for an emergency meeting for slc.

so todae. morning we had council stuff, meeting shiwei to discuss slc meanwhile too. so todae was formal stuff for e council la so i shant elaborate. wat realli impt was what happened after tat. SLC and exco. slc meeting was veri serious. first was reflections then followed by the screwing session by e seniors. "if u see me here, it means ur slc is screwed". okay so we are screwed rite? "its so screwed that ms seng has even asked the seniors to step in, and take over some ppl" are u sure? how sure are u? wan to check with ms seng? tats out of e qn but why is this happening. why do the seniors hav to resort to such means??? this week has been a mentally stressful one for me.

SLC. Student Leaders Convention. 11slc. 11th Student Leaders Convention. who is running this event. this event that puts not onli HCI at stake, but RGS and RV. WE are running this event. this big event that SHOULD stand out from others. an event organized by students for students. okay yes, now its not going smoothly. stagnant . u can say that. but the point is why does the seniors hav to do it this way? those who do not noe e full pic will feel suddenly veri pressurized. is this method effective? is threatening and placing ultimatums effective!?!?! will it produce such work that is satisfactory to u? rmb this is 11slc, not the 10slc. yes u can say 10slc is excellent. 11slc...hopeless for now. everything of 11slc is not going according to 1oslc. webpage not professional enough etc. i repeat its OUR SLC, not yours. so its up to US to make decisions. OUR STYLE of doing things. so what if ur website was veri coporate and professional. cant we change e damn thing? is it a MUST to do things that way? to ME, advisors = ppl who advise u on doing things. ADVISE! not COMMAND OR MOCK! they tell us what we should do, but rmb, decisions lie with US! now they hav taken command of things. but i noe we will be able to oust them away. 1 week. 7 days. im sure if everyone commits, we will be able to kick their asses. all we need is this commitment from all of u. some of u may think wat the hell are we doing this in e first place. its our event and u can choose to screw it. u may be bu shuang with e seniors, boycott them watsoever. but rmb tis is ur event. so i hav said everything i wan la.

so after e meeting went kap and chilled out.

who wans failure. failure will implicate everyone. but if everyone works, failure will implicate noone. we can do it ppl. we can.

2005-03-05T22:50:00.000+08:00

todae is saturday and im glad to announce that me and shiwei completed our first draft of Proposal today! and started on our Lit review liaoz! went to meet with branden to liase with the restaurant for the ProEd induction camp...onli to find out charles low had alreadi done tat for us...hahaz. so in e end, me and branden went to kap to hav our breakfast and tok loads of cock for bout 1h plus. a veri engaging conversation i mus say!
aniway so later shiwei came my place to do mrp...and as i said above, we finally completed our proposal! yea! hahaz.
okay now let me tok bout friday. Unofficially, thats the last day of school! there's onli sabbaticals next week! finally can rest liaoz. so friday as usual the teachers gave all e holiday hw...and the winner of the most hw teacher is none other than our fav SLIM...hahaz

aniway so after tat had ncc... mock c&c test. haiz, first impression for training was crap. lujie came down then veri first thing he said," why so little ppl onli!" cos as u dun noe, attendence was i tink 10 onli!!!! cant blame us, aphelion had EOTA tat day and would be late...BE LATE = COMING, BUT LATER! so after attendence we moved on to the mock c&c test. and damn was it a hot day. the sun was so so so freaking hot! can cook egg on the floor wan lor! and cos is test, each ppl taking longer than usual. onli 2 ppl do c&c and the whole section almost half dead liaoz. literally dead. so we had a break, and carried on. then more ppl came, mainly zhiyi, daniel and benphua. so we were split to 2 sections to speed things up... so it carried on. then later sengyeow and joonwee came. and we c&c under the bloody hot sun for the whole training. 2.30 to 6.30....sianz. haha. how did i do in the test, hmm...okay la, up to expectations but i tink still can be improved. especially shouting and comments. nvm! i will SURELY improve wan! erpx. okay and lujie said next week training he might allow us to do c&c on partBs!!! so shuang, but after fri's attendence, he said he would hav to consider. haiz..
SO ALL partCs! make sure come for training next week!

am i really tat immature?

2005-03-02T19:33:00.000+08:00

finally im bloggin again...hahaz. 2 more days...and can relac liaoz...cant stand it lor.

term 1 is almost over, and sec3 life sure is strenous. i cant say im disappointed with my results, neither can i say im happi too... i can see grades dropping everywhere, so maybe tats happening to everyone. today's assembly mr hon talked about workload of sec3. and often u can see ppl posting "transitional period". to me tats jus a bloody damn excuse. using the term "transitional period" as an excuse for ur poor results is a veri poor one. Its YOU that hav a problem...y dint u work harder noeing that sec3 life would be tougher? aniway jus dun feel shuang about those using transitional period as an excuse...

okay so next i wan to screw is the teachers, or rather IP. i dunno if its me, or is that every single teacher except eng and chinese are rushing thru their syllabus... Maths, Physics, Biology, IH, Chemistry. all seem to be rushing thru their syllabus. take bio for example, haven even realli understood enzymes and now she's moving on to nutrition. then maths oso, most of e time in class, im confused, but luckily got weizheng! aiyah wats their prob la. rush rush rush for wat! catch train ah! wats the point of teaching so much when we dun even understand any of them and dun noe e applications of it? y not teach slowly and get everyone to understand b4 moving on! Education is to place knowledge into ppl, but this is jus training ur memorizing skills! nvm...e higher authorities dun care...wait till end of year then review again

then again, life aint so bad thanks to other stuffs! NCC! todae had pds training. finally a pds training after orientation05. so today had a change, its going to be rotational leadership. Todae was sx's turn, and he would have to prepare the training for the day! and woot he did a good job...hahaz. then played soccer! was damn meng jus now...hahaz. but if dun meng bu shuang la! mus release all e anger and frustration within!

so till later...endure and i will make it...i tink so la

2005-02-04T22:24:00.000+08:00

jus managed to survive a veri veri tedious and stressful week. damn shack now after coming home from trainin. this week has had 4 tests, numerous assignments and stuff to rush. studied since weekend till now. haiz so damn stressful.
and i jus screwed up my maths and chinese test. haiz...shant tink bout it.
next week CNY week. wats e problem with the bloody school and education system! CNY HOLIDAYs LEH! then still place so many tests and stuff on the week after CNY. wats e prob lor, instead of refreshening ourselves and spending time with relatives and family, i will be mugging for e tests. so wats e big huha over wat five-day week. if the govt really wan to wat give more time for family interaction, they shld change the bleddy screwed up education system. nvm, im jus a little insignificant figure trying to make my stand.
aniway, c&c is drawing nearer liaoz....and spec course and take over. haiz, are we realli readi? are we able to handle parts of 40+ cadets? onli time will tell.

]y do we care so much? y do we do so much?

2005-01-24T23:16:00.000+08:00

yawns...so veri tired. dunno if its me or its the new sec 3 life. i feel so tired everyday. every single day i go home on e bus slping. i slp as i play ms. haiz. maybe im still in holiday mood. but i shall endure.
week 4 liaoz, 1 more week and itz week 5. and the test will all start pouring in. maybe i shld start my mugging now. nah, i hate mugging to early. i prefer last min work. so till then, i shall heck. maybe the next thing to look out for is CNY celebrations = long holiday aka break = loads of hw. haiz. i wonder wat the hell singapore education is about, putting so much stress into e students. nvm, i shall use e ever so powerful word called endure.
hmm...according to ks, there is a high chance of a pds performance for CSM. hope so. missed last year's one. thinking of another field performance give me the thrills. gogogo, go pressure the pe teachers! hahaz.
life sux, but wat can we do? nth, so how? live with it.

im a emotionless freak

2005-01-22T00:21:00.000+08:00

okay, im freaking exhausted. dint slpt much last night and today was a veri hectic day. hahaz. so i woke up at 8+ and went to macritche to run! mircalez siaz. so after some running, and i realized that i was going to be late for my SLC meeting later. but how? deep inside macritche, so have to pia all the way out, which was bout 5km!!! damn. aniway i managed to survive thru it and went for the SLC meeting, late though.
okay today was party 01 for SLC, at jerry's place. first up dere was a concept meeting, with the confirmation of the concept blah blah blah. then comes the fun part! hahaz. so we played a survival board game first, which was, quite interesting concept. hahaz, and my tribe won!!! LOL...following tat, the Logs came around tat time. so after tat it was mass gathering in front of e tv! hahaz. tok cock for awhile then came the veri interesting game by suayu. each 1 is supposed to find a partner, and then tok to each other bout anything blah blah blah. then suayu will ask them qn bout each other, and if they answer correctly, they would take 1 step forward. after awhile, the game started to get lame, so we stopped. so off we went to prepare the bbq, which was quite unsuccessful till the help of jerry's dad. so after tat, back to games, and tis time it was zhong ji mi ma. and unlucky me was the first to do forfeit, which was quite an easy one though, which was to eat a slice of cake with soya sauce. so the game proceeded till dinner. then after dinner was another tok cock sing song type of session. then came the scenario game! hahaz, poor branden. he was chosen to act with michelle, with some scandalicious issue behind it, so i shall not elaborate =) then after tat was some ghost story sharing session which was not veri successful. so off to the playground we went to play catching! hahaz tat was fun. imagine 23 teenagers running in a small plot of land in the dark night. hahaz. another reason to show how exhausted i am. so after tat was the end of e party 01 and a nice one too. thanks to jerry and his family too for imposing on their property...hahaz
haiz tmr still need go sch for some stupid ESIP scholarship test. 3H long leh! siaoz lor. nvm. i shall endure. then after tat i most probably would have to pia my hw liaoz. haven even touch samuellim's essay, damn.
eyes almost closing liaoz.....

slc, party 01

2005-01-19T22:27:00.000+08:00

bondd. a word not to be underestimated.
now today is a veri sianz day...until ncc training. even my maths teacher admitted she was trying to keep awake during assembly!
so ncc came...c & c. did some pumpings b4 tat. so after c&c came the fun part. as ncc tradition. here comes the bond. and our veri unlucky victims: dan, jared, shiwei! hahaz. dan was the worst one...kenna backstab! no thanks to me! hehex...was bonding yeow when decided to backstab dan! so off came the no.4 shirt and down came the pants!!! maroon underwear siaz...hahaz...
so after the much fun in the classroom which became a big mess, we decided to leave. and out came our fav ernie! and if u dun noe...todae is his bdae!!! then joonwee started it when we started singing happi bdae!!! JI LAMEZ!!! then he left and we somehow followed! then near swimming pool...smth else happened...ECHO AFTER ME! ERNIE! ERNIE!....hahaz...
so went home and pia hw, but show not over yet...
at around 9.15pm, planning started. guns loaded. infantry and artillery readi. locked and ready. operation: bdae surprize. PLAN: coordinated spamming! at the count of 5, all spam block and unblock ernie, + open convo wishing happi bdae!!! MISSION ACOMPLISHED! when we finally got him back in to our convo, he was stil lagging! mus be overload, cpu processor cant take it siaz...the power of the part Cs siaz...MASS SPAM! then came a gd idea by dan, SPAMING OF EMAIL AND HP! but jk onli la..if not ah...hehex..
so tis concluded a veri fun nite. ernie managed to feel the power of HCINCC, the sadisticalness of part Cs..hehex

sadist runs in the blood

2005-01-13T22:27:00.000+08:00

hmm. finally im blogging again. got free time mah. tonite no need prepare ncc uniform..cos tmr ncc pt and games siaz!!! MIRACLE! hahaz. aniway, it has been a long time since we had such training. The last time i tink was during snr shiwei's time...so long ago....haiz
aniway, happi bdae to kaiqing...zai la..so fast 15 liaoz la...fine...hahaz...hope u can do well in everything this year, esp with some1 hor...hahaz.
slowly im adapting to sch life...but it sure isnt fun. lessons till 4pm! sianz diaoz. im lyk sleeping thru so many lessons everyday!!! die liaoz, i doubt i can keep up my standards liaoz. haiz.
jus cleared my cupboards and rearranged everyting.

NCC, NCC, NCC

2005-01-08T22:47:00.000+08:00

hmmm, im finally blogging again. hahaz. 1st week in school has passed, and hell itz been a new experience. new class, new ppl, new teachers, new subjects. lets see. to me, being in 3h is not fun. look at the ppl in 3h, either nerds, muggers or super talented. ji stressed siaz. hahaz. then new teachers, new subjects. bio, damn it was cheem. the teacher was lyk first lesson bombard us with those cheem scienticfic words lyk endoplasmic reticulum, ribbosomes...sianz diaoz. then now every tues and thursday have to stay back for afternoon lessons until 4, plus wed and fri ncc...left with onli monday free. haiz. and i cant believe im startin to do ACE now. mus be to stressed up. hahaz.

aniway, we are starting on c & c in ncc now. 6 more months liaoz. endure...

onli 1st week into school, and im feeling tis way. maybe i shld jus take it easy....

too many too fast too much too busy too stressed. too many toos

2004-12-29T23:09:00.000+08:00

hmm. woke up at 12pm today. slpt at 6am. hahaz. was up the whole night ytd. lol. chatted on msn till lyk 1am, then watch tian long ba bu vcd all the way to 4am siaz. then went to watch manu vs villa. hahaz. i tink im gonna do the same thing tonite. got arsenal vs newcastle. hahaz. aniways, tian long ba bu is a nice show. lots of backstabbing siaz. hahahaz. full of surprises too, to the characters la...the characters are lyk always in shock. hahaz.
haiz. gonna sch reopen liaoz.sianz diaoz. wat have i done this holidays. slack slack and slack. maths project. then continue slacking. lol.

time flies. bird flies. plane flies. i dun fly. my dream flies.

2004-12-28T09:31:00.001+08:00

yea! orientation is finally over. the weeks of training paid off. todae was the day. hahaz. we did 9 or 10 performances in total. it looked nice. no one dropped rifles throughout the performances, although there were little cock ups here and dere...and i had lots of cock up..surely. 1st performance cock up liaoz. haiz...
looking from the turnout, it seems tat ncc can get a huge squard next year...and sgt wanpeng was lyk..wah! he was lyk playing with the sec 1s lor. wat wanpeng arm, then rotate lyk siao, then fake drop rifle, hahaz. then mach4 can become CS shotgun. LOL
so another milestone has passed. next step, part c 2005. next year sec 3 is gonna be a hard year. ncc and sch life. hard to handle.
lets hope things go on well then...

2004-12-28T09:31:00.000+08:00

hmm, a few more hours to orientation liaoz. gd luck guys. 12 performances, imagine tat. hope i dont cock up. the future of ncc depends on todae...
have not been blogging much recently. performance coming, sch reopening sianz diaoz. haiz. so fast sch reopen liaoz. 1 more week onli. wat the hell.
dun tink i will get to enjoy life as in 2e with 3h. its gonna be a veri competitive class. surely. haiz. how i wish tat i could still be in the same old class...

changed my blog template. how is it? lol....

2004-12-16T22:21:00.001+08:00

hmm, jus came home from a stupid event. wasted my 3h, jus stone there do nth. damn. okay lets see, COC was crap. wasted the whole morning, in the end we go dere tok cock and watch e parade. at least betta then those marching. hahaz. sianz diaoz...
1 year has almost passed, has almost reached the end of another milestone. tis year has been a veri eventful, fruitful, fun, interesting year. wat can i say, reflecting back on tis year, 365 days, hmm...
lets see, let me reflect 1 by 1...
1st thing, ncc. woohoo, veri interesting year for me. lets start from history. who would believe tat i hate ncc? i dunno. tell the truth, eva since senior mark took over during the middle of last year, i started to hate ncc. not say hate, but dislike ncc, bu shuang ncc. then i tried to pon every training, tried to come out with excuses, but timid me did not dere to. so i jus went for training everi week. then was the lowest point in my sec 1 life. having to deal with the EOYS, then still have to prepare no.4 every thursday. haiz. tinking y did i join ncc in the first place. so tis feeling lasted all the way till the end of sec 1 life. then came tis year. sec 2. i was still having dis feeling. then came the change. drastic? not realli. for tis i have to thank some ppl. thanks to them, i enjoyed life in ncc. if not i wonder how could i survive tis year? u shld noe who they are. jared,sx,ks,yuhan. thanks to them. being eva n2 in ncc, they influenced me greatly. having the gathering at ep3 block everyday, they make me enjoy life here. they might not noe, but they have motivated me. i tot pumping was a chore, but now its a game. so with the help of them, the next half of mark's term passed veri fine. tat time, i was the 2ic, but a hopeless one. the part was falling apart. wat can i do. nothing. ncc bonds, but tat is not happening then. so july, staff lujie took over. a new reign. i joined pds, 1 year later then the rest. again, the main reason i joined was cos of them. during our gatherings at ep3 block, they would do pds sometimes. i was the onli one not in pds, so i was lyk outcasted. thus the decision to join pds. with tat, they helped me to train up my drills. then it was performance. ndp was drawing near. i had to abandon the basics and start on the performance drills. days of training, and i managed to scrape into the performance. to date, i still do not noe the basics. haiz. failure. but i will learn. so after performance came the next boulder to cross. orienteering. me and yuhan. we worked as a team. thru tis, and our toking on the bus, we got to noe each other better. every orienteering training, we worked together to improve. and finally we passed, and got into the orienteering com. me,jared,sx,yuhan and zhixing. so came the day. orienteering com 2004. so close, yet so far. luck mus not be with us. all thanks to 1 screwed checkpoint. it could have been us. but it wasnt. wat can we say. onli tat next year, we will get it. so after tis big disappointment, it was back to the part's problem. profi was coming, the part was still not dere. but it was strengthening though. yuhan was the new 2ic. he did his best, and he's still doing it. the part is healing, the stiches left to hold them tight. then came camp. a new experience. and another interview. and finally i got it. so tis year has came and gone. another year is preparing to come bursting. next year will be more interesting. the last six months of cadet life. will it heal? wat will happen to ncc.
next, school life. hmm. tis year brought much change. with the implementation of IP, things changed. ACE. at the begining of the year, i was afraid tat i could not max ace. but it turned out differently. i looked forward to the year. 1st term passed. same old crap. wat can i say. kee's teaching was the same, or even more boring. i was always dozing off. leowry, couldnt manage to get the class's attention. limsp, still the fav teacher i tink. haiz. 1st term passed. i was still not afraid. my ace was pathetic. most 0. then i started to worry. but procrastination got the betta of me. so term 2 passed. with onli a slight improvement in ace. then came the help i wanted all the while. hon introduced some transition changes. the saviour, wenxi. he helped us a lot in project's day. if u are wondering wat has project's day gotta do with my ace, think again. project's day = ace galore. a high distinction would mean 10 to relevant sub and 7 to all others. and tats a lot of ace. so with the help of wenxi, late nights, we (kengwei,xianyou,ivan and me) managed to clinch a high distinction with our project. it was the group's pride. with the great help of project's day, my ace maxed in term 3. thanks wenxi. term 3. the most important term. tis was when the class started to realize that there was no more time to play. exemption came into mind. i swore to get all. at the end of term 3, i hoped my dream was still acheivable. term 4. ppl started to pia. i was worried bout my dream. and my year of hard work paid off. came the sms from kee, and i was exhilrated. my dream had came true. so tis year had been a veri fulfilling year...............
the class, 1e'03, 2e'04. our class no doubt, was the most happy go lucky class. everyday, the phrase,"leng" would be heard in class. the infamous wang hongda and his leng-ing. tou kaning, brought much laughter to the class. it soon became a class tradition. DJ, helping the class ever so dilligently. the class has been a beri fun one to be in. cant forget keng and dijie. my gd buddies. cant forget the times we lamed on 157. dijie and his hugging of ppl. thanks to the class, lameness and lenging got to me. micheal and his eva loud voice. hongda coming to sch, everiday,"who nvr do hw?" in the end he nvr do. at 6.50 everyday, the class would be the busiest. copying hw. hehex. then after school came chapteh. once bell rings, the corridors would be filled with chapteh. hahaz. thanks class. u made me find joy in this boring and dull school life.
frens. the colours tat brighten up my black and white life. thanks to all my frens. new frens were made, old frens were cherished. with frens bring laughter. frens have helped me, given me motivation, providing me the goal and strength to last thru every sch day. giving me something to look forward to.
i have grown a lot tis year. learned to accept things as they are. matured? no. improved? not realli. short? yes. i leart to accept facts as they are. for eg, short. everyday, day in day out, some1 will niao me bout tis. but so wat? im short, yea, so? looks are jus superficial. i learnt to accept tat. no point bashing some1 up, crying bout it or scolding it. wats the use. jus accept it. ppl might think im being too acceptive. tat i dont have my own opinion. its not tat i dont have my own opinion. its tat i choose to keep my opinion to myself, if i have any. i dont get angry for no reason. have i changed? i dunno. some1 help me ans tis qn.
next year is gonna be a year with lots of changes. changes in sch, subjects, ncc, lifestyle etc. how will i react to it? wait and see. how will i change even more. or will i remain stagnant. will frenship be strengthened, or broken. will life be the same again? i doubt.
tis is a long post rite. endure

be prepared, a new wave is coming. ride it or be swallowed.
1 mus learn to endure, with endurance, nth is impossible.
the wingless butterfly will fly, cos it wans to. tis is determination.

2004-12-16T22:21:00.000+08:00

hm..tmr going to HQ for COC...dunno wat the hell...nvm...go there march correct liaoz..erpx...nvm
today went to attend the Civil Defense Course...damn crapy and slack...hahaz...all the CD instructors all super slack...still can tok cock with us...hahaz...tell ghost story...overall learnt bout firefighting, evaucation and some other stuff...was dozing off bout 1/4 the time...hehex...SAF getting to welfare sia...starting wat "row by row go take a chair and sit down"...erpx...xia dao...then whole course no shouting...then the test oso veri crapy...wat 15 MCQ qn...hahaz...and do wat guard duty...obviously is faking laz...but much better than SANA course lor...tat one 2 days still got hell lot of project...hahaz...so got my CD badge liaoz...
hmm...bout 1 more week to christmas liaoz...then sch reopen liaoz..fast hor...this 2 and a half mths have passed so fast...hahaz...maybe i shall write my EOY reflections...hahaz...lame diaoz...but i tink i will write..but not now...too late liaoz...mus go slp..tmr mus wake up freaking early...haiz...

2004-12-10T20:56:00.000+08:00

shall blog todae...hahaz...todae is 10th dec liao...sch holis gonna end damn soon...tis holis seem to pass so fast...

lets see...wat shall i write...

Sunday....
went to play soccer in the morn with my cousins and bro...hahaz...played street soccer...bout 2hs...hahaz...then after tat had lunch at mac...then play warcraft with them liao..hahaz...play till lyk 7 lor...so had dinner...after tat watched the spore idol which my cousin had recorded...and i wondered how the hell did sly get in in the first place(sly fans dont come find me hor)...so after tat go home lor...

Mon...
wat did i do...hmm...ooo..monday was a veri fun day...basically spent the whole day at home...hahaz...

Tues...
went to watch without a paddle with sy and kq...tat show damn farnie sia..but oso got meaning...bout friendship...lyk brothers sia...hahaz...da band of bros...lets hope it will happen...hmm...how many frens will last tat long...so after tat..hehex...did smth so fun...cant say...if not im screwed...so shall skip tat part...hahaz..

Wed...
another veri fun day...whole morn playing ms..hahaz...then afternoon went plae bad with cousins (supposed to go ice-skating but ring closed)

Thurs...
best day sia...from morn to afternoon...even did not eat lunch...play ms...hahaz..crap rite...

Friday...a.k.a today
went to training todae...with an attendance of 13 lor...lol...supposed to do orientation training...but how...4 pds and 9 non pds...train wat shit...so instead all go do arms drills..they give us the old rifles sia..not used to it liao...too light la...so we had drills with lots of cheer inside...almost no voice liao..then we did some veri fun pt...hahaz...ENDURE!...then followed by bball which my teeam got thrashed..haha...then went coro to makan...then go home play ms awhile..then play bad again...hahaz...

so tis week almost over liao...haiz..gd luck to those in EAI...endure thru those shit...think of the badge..tink of we calling u ic...onli how many more days ah..6 more...can one..endure...and congrats to clt eugene...completed to clt course...haiz...holis almost over liao..haiz..next year will be a veri different year..sec 2 to 3...ncc...council...and dunno wat will come next...hahz....

2004-12-04T08:51:00.000+08:00

finally back...tired now...tis is gonna be a damn long post...

lets tok bout ncc camp first...22 to 25 nov..."its the time of the year again, to have fun"...and fun we had
first day passed lyk any normal first day in camp...not hiong not slack...our RSM...hehex...nvm...so huijie got to be the BOS for the first day...normally BOS 1st day the worst...have to standardize lots of stuff...so in the morning we had our profi...which passed veri quickly...then lunch...as usual is maggie mee...haiz...so after tat was a crap talk by warren liew on some IFC thingy bout wat army formations and wat infantry stuff...sleeping...then went for swimming after tat...dint noe how to swim so went to the group tat cant swim and learnt to swim...hahaz...managed to learn tat little bit...after tat is dinner...and ncc dinner is always good...then came the bunk cleaning and bunk check...i have nth to say bout cleaning...jus tat...the part as will have to work hard the next camp...from wat i see in my section...so bunk check quite ok la...do 50max thanks to clt yuxuan...after tat is wargames...woohoo wargames rocks...had 3 games...first one was the normal classic style...alpha vs bravo...hehex...the alpha pawned the bravos...me shiwei jared and the part bs immediately rushed to the bravo's base once the game started...hahaz...then keep gang banging ppl in the end we whooped them...hahaz...
next 1 was free for all in groups of 4...me jared shiwei and andrew...so play play play...then i was dragged out to play against yuhan...hahaz...1 on 1 with him...play until damn tired...fight i mean...i won eventually....hahaz...and i got last man standing...hahaz...so proud of myself...hehex...but not without bruises...
3rd one was basically part a, part b and ncos...
so tat night go sleep...
next day...morning pt was acceptable...then had part activity...we had pds...so we went thru the pds lor...then lunch....then after tat is the trek to bukit timah hill...quite lame la...but oso good la...walk the tahan loop...then dunno wat loop...hahaz...but rain halfway...make it more shiok man...so come back to school...dinner...then normal stuff liao...bunk check was hiong tat night...clts were screaming their lungs out...make us pump, situps and run...but as always as long as endure can liao...
3rd day was fine...pt was fun...thanks to our RSM...did 3 sets of 40 pumpings and 30 situps...after tat was pds selection test...whew...made it to the performance...then lunch...then had another pds...tis time we did a little bit of formation and doing with the music...them beat is fast sia...must practise more...so after tat we had games...played rugby and british bulldog...something lyk wargames hahaaz....then dinner, bunk clean...then while waiting for bunk check...got ppl were called out...i was 1 of them...so had 5 mins to change from pt to no.3 ... which we dint make it...so go back and join in the bunk check...last night quite welfare...wat 3 per mistakes...so we were called out again...then we were tapped...and after tat stone there for lyk 1 and half hour...then got my turn for e interview...2nd time liao leh...zi bei...was still quite nervous as b4...cant elaborate...so tat night got solo night...i was placed at the middle of parade sq...looking at tat farnie tree...thanks to jared hor...then i was sitting there...looking at the tree...thinking...then rmb how many times i zham the tree when play soccer..hahaz...and soon solo night was over...nth farnie happened to me...
so last day was quite slack...pt..bunk clean and check...then me and yuhan was called up again...dint noe until we went up...realized it was a 2nd interview session...so after tat was muster parade...last muster parade liao...promotion ceremony...and i got part b best cadet!!! yea!!!! hehex...finally...
okay tats all for camp...so after camp went kap to eat..then go home...at night still got plane to catch...go shanghai for 8 days...hiong rite...
now for the holiday...
5h flight to shanghai...went with my father mother brother cousin his mother and aunt...7 ppl...chan bros tour group...the flight there was crappy...headaches...the food sucks...and my 1st air flight sia...hahaz...so reached shanghai at bout 6am...the temp freaking cold sia....5 degree...then the wind so strong...oso most froze sia...so went we went to a dunno wat cheng2 huang3 miao4 for breakfast...same time go shopping..haha...after that went to 上海滩 and realized tat it was not a beach after all...just a 码头 ..hahaz...so after tat walked to 南京路 to shop...then go for lunch...and our guide was called 小徐...leon his eng name...university grad leh...okay so after lunch we made our way to 杭州 the bus journey was lyk 3hs..hahaz...sit until backside pain sia...on the way stoped at xi1 tang2...a 水乡...water village...then continued our journey...then went for dinner then got to hotel lor...and as it was bout winter liao...at bout 5plus the sky dark liao....
so next day...day2...still at 杭州 morning we went to 西湖 to take a look...damn nice place...the lake veri clear...so after tat we made our way to mei2 jia1 wu1 where we went to see and taste the 龙井茶 or dragon well tea...farnie name rite...but the tea is nice...the price oso freaking ex...the promoter was veri zai...can persuade lyk siao...so after tat had lunch....then back to 西湖 again but tis time we had a boat trip round it...okay so after tat we went to some bee kingdom where we were introduced to the bee products...again the promoter was so zai and managed to convince a lot of ppl to buy...then after tatbout 5plus liao...we had a little of shopping then had dinner...after dinner we went to 宋城 some place tat introduce the song dynasty...then we had a cultural show...damn nice...the effects all beri zai...then it was back to the hotel...
day 3....we travelled from 杭州 to 苏州 3h journey again...haiz...so when we reached there...went to the suzhou industrial park...the spore china one...then we had lunch...after tat we went to 寒山寺 to visit the temple...nice temple...then went to 沧浪亭 some preserved villa...a lot of heritage inside...veri interesting...then went to the silk factory which suzhou was famous for...got to see the silk cocoons etc...then how they make the silk stuff...and the price oso freaking ex...then we had dinner...followed by shopping at somewhere...forget where...bought some cds...the cds there freaking cheap...i bought FIR and 五月天 at 20 and 25 rmb...original one so cheap...convert to SGD onli 4 and 5 dollar lor...
day4...from 苏州 travelled to 南京 long long journey again..tis time got jam somemore...so we had lunch first....then went to 中山陵 where we got to see the sun yat sen masoleum...at 紫金山...had to climb to get there...but from the top the view veri nice...so after tat...too late liao...so went for dinner...then shopping again...hahaz..at a place got 夫子庙 or confucious temple la...there got lots of pirated cds and dvd sia...freaking cheap oso...dvd is lyk SGD 1 onli...
day 5...morning we went to 南京玄武湖 ...went to see some 变色龙 ...which was a freaking statue of a dragon with plants on it...then diff seasons diff colour...lame diao....so after tat went to some jade factory...same old stuff...the promoters oso veri zai...so after tat we had lunch...then made our way to 无锡...3h again...and 无锡 air the worst sia...step out of the bus can cough immediately sia...so had dinner...then went shopping...hahaz...
day 6...went to 三国城 the place where they filmed the 三国演义 .. there veri big...a lot of things to see... beri zai... even got show to see...三英斗吕布...show on horseback...bout 刘备，张飞，关于 fight against 吕布 on horseback...veri zai show...so after tat went to visit some 潜水珍珠 factory...then call us buy pearl...then the same old persuading promoters..hahaz...then went to some 紫砂壶 where show the kettle made of 紫砂 then they demostrate the benefits of it...wat can float on water...the kettle got brake one...then can support the weight of 250kg...fascinated sia...so after tat was the journey to shanghai...4h sia...so we had dinner...then after tat was a boat trip on 黄浦江 along 上海滩 veri nice...and miraculously...i met nicholas on the same boat as me sia...he went beijing and jus came to shanghai...so we had a nice little talk...haahz...so coincidental...so after tat...dinner....
then day 7 and 8 is free so i wont elaborate....then last night took the flight back....about midnight flight...reached singapore at bout 5am today...on the plane tis time better...nicer food...hahaz...so now im back here
wat i realize is tat china drivers and promoters all damn freaking zai...then china drivers can rmb so many roads sia and the promoters are all expert buggers sia..can bug and bug and bug u sia...but oso can bargain...from 3600rmb bargain until 1500 rmb...hahz...
so end of my veri veri long blog...hahaz...tis is simplified verison liao hor...

2004-11-18T22:23:00.000+08:00

argh...damn pissed now...freaking pissed...why dont they understand me...haiz...
everything tat they tink i lyk is the opposite...this shows how well they understand me hor
they dont even noe my interest and my passsion...keep telling me not to exhaust myself...as if i will...as if im tat weak lor. 1 will fight for his passion and challenge his limits even though he is not able to...and this shows how well they noe me...
freaking pissed by them....cant stand it...everything i wan to do oso oppose me...cant u jus let me decide! they think im always not up to the task...am i realli still tat little kid in their eyes...pissed...cant i handle my own things...im always changing masks to suit diff ppl...and im sick of it...im always putting this mask for them to see...and another mask for others...and who noes me? crappy...

ncc camp coming liao...cant wait for it to come..the countdown has started...the last camp to Cs.

2004-11-16T23:48:00.000+08:00

sianz diao...today went to sch for self training...but went beach rd instead to buy the badges for them...after going to countless shops...we finally found a shop tat sold the new SANA badge...but onli got 10...sad rite...so we book more...then got backing and the orienteering badge lor...
so went kap awhile then go home lor...
on the bus met sgt lujie...dunno y he going to sch in tat attire
went home settled some council stuff then start playing maple story liao...it was 3pm lor...and i played till lyk 7 lor...hahaz...so fun...lame game and lame person and lame day match rite..so of cos veri fun...
sianz diao..tmr mus go support the cheering com...dunno y must they force us lor...haiz...but nvm...wats to be done have to be done...im insignifant to make any decisions...y do they call it IP then...haiz

all i care is wat i tink and not wat u tink...wat u tink dosent affect me...so carry on tinking then...i wont give a damn

2004-11-15T23:29:00.000+08:00

finally got my soccer shoes...bought it from queensway...where else...lotto one...tmr gonna try it out if possible...
today went to play badminton with daniel, kq, sy and her bro...hahaz...quite fun...but tiring...but nvm...nice experience...play until my hand the skin peel...damn painfull...sy bro reminds me of my bro...hahaz...irritating...noisy...crappy...but i have to admit...his badminton skills quite zai...
tmr got self...dunno how many ppl will be turning up...haiz...
daniel u had betta curb ur addiction man..sekali lose until broke...hahaz...touch wood hor..

2004-11-12T20:20:00.000+08:00

i wan go for enhanced auxillary instructor course...i wan i wan i wan...hahaz...then half my holidays are gone...but worth it la...15 day course 9 hours a day...seems a lot rite...but can 1 la...so fun pds...pds so fun...hahax...
today ncc training was ok la..but i tink we were seriously not up to standard...especially my section...realli not coordination...and i can see some were not putting in effort...damnit...profi comming liao still lyk tat...haiz...hope for e best...then we had a surprise pt test...managed to get full for pumping and situps...
overall todae was a ok day...
mon going to play badminton...but haven plan properly...hahaz...
go to http://www.ncc.org.sg/newsletter/2004/mar/precision.htm and look at the 2nd and 3rd picture...see who u see there...hahax...

2004-11-11T01:29:00.000+08:00

who wants to noe wat the previous post was about...its crap rite...so dont care it...hahaz...
camp is coming liao....

2004-11-09T22:36:00.000+08:00

wat can i say...haiz...wat is wrong...something somewhere has cock up somehow...im beaten at my own game again...it always seems this way...how can this happen...haiz...im portraying a different face am i...who has realli seen all the faces of me...haiz...to think i would be beaten in my own game...im a failure am i...hmm...
who noes wat im toking about...i dunno...those who noe wat im toking bout...gd fer u...if u dont...dont ask me...haiz...
wat can i say...wat has the world become...hahax...
priorities are set...they can be changed...but who will determine the changes...
goals are set...they can be changed too...but who again will determine it...
somewhere someone something somehow sometimes
these words are so powerful...
y am i facing these...this is part and parcel of life ain it...all tat i said...does it make sense...hmm...have i grown...is this wat we are supposed to go thru, endure thru...
haiz....
y izzit always so....cant i handle this pressure??
cant i
i wont succumb to these types of pressure...
these seems crap...i noe it is crap...who noes...onli those who noes will noe...

hahaz

2004-11-08T21:44:00.000+08:00

life is so contradicting, filled with surprises...hahaz..rite? yesterday went to watch the Change of Guards at the Istana...the pds damn zai...do flying fish etc...zai diao...
sx should be going on the plane now...zai kia...going italy for 10days...haiz...zi bei ah zi bei...lol...bon voyage dude..and gd luck in u noe wat rite...go fer it if u tink u shld do it...rmb wat i said...
so these few days damn sianz...parents starting to nag me for going out everyday...haiz...y cant i have the freedom tat i want?
nvm...used to it liao...tmr got pds...orientation coming liao..must do well...2 more weeks to camp...bursting with anticipation....=S...hahaz...the long awaited bunk check and admin time...ji hao wan...hahahahahahaz

2004-11-06T21:25:00.000+08:00

stoning is so fun....tis morning i was stoning all the while...stone until fall asleep....hahaz....woke up at 9.3o am then 11am can fall asleep lor...jus by lying on the bed lor...haha...damn sianz diao...

2004-11-06T11:35:00.000+08:00

haiz...damn sianz...life...wat is life...my life has jus started to pick up...who really understands me...i dunno...im for sure not many ppl understand me...wat are frenz for...hhmmm.frenz...a vague word...true frenz...gd frenz...haiz....

2004-11-03T23:36:00.000+08:00

jus came back from choral nite...today's was damn zai...all the performances all veri zai...i lyk the 2 210 performances and the horror one...haha...the prince for the cinderella was lyk...wth...so farnie...today was at kap for lyk the whole afternoon....at first with ks...then jo and her friend came...then later stay all the way till daniel and van came...then yuhan and shiwei with tingwei came....shiwei ah....hehehe....betta make ur decision soon...if not ah...got bad consequences leh....
tmr got pds....going to school at 1030h....when we supposed to fall in at 1430....haha....so sianz at home...tmr dont tink i going for choral nite....
as i told yuhan...these few weeks...or bout 1 and a half month has been my best time tis year....my most interesting and eventful time of the year...thanks to all who have helped brightened up my life...u shld noe....

holidays

2004-10-31T11:32:00.000+08:00

long time nvr post liao...after camp damn tired...but quite a successful one...surprises...dotz....so on thursday went imt shooting...shot 13...damn zibei...screwed up the 2nd target...if not can get marks men.....shit....then nvm....come back to school have training...ok...la...little hiong...i can see we have improved....think back at our drills 1 year ago....we have realli progressed....as for part spirit, im not sure...still have lots to do....but it was a fun day...ncc the whole day....then on friday last day of school...got back report card....expected rite...no need i write....no training today....so went to play soccer...while andrew and ks went to yuhan house....so play alreadi go serene and play cards..thanks rozey....helped me modify my deck....thanks a lot ur a true buddy....then i realized yesterday...thanks to wenwei...my average is 97....i got xia dao....so high...haha...then yesterday was in school the whole day..morning got pds....then after tat play soccer...then the fuking security guard come and chase us away....wats bad bout IP...its those security guards....screw them...so after tat went coro eat...then come back for proed leadership camp appraisal and AAR....finished at bout 1830h...then go home makan lor...slept at bout 1am...FIR rocks...they jus rocks....FIR is my idol!

camptime

2004-10-24T13:50:00.000+08:00

buzi these few days...proed leadership camp is tmr...buzi planning it...hope it runs smoothly...hope it doesnt rains...pls dont...if not im screwed...

yea man

2004-10-20T16:34:00.000+08:00

japanese name: Sutanrei rimu
yea...today xcountry got 10th...haha...achieved the top 10 position i aimed for. but 2E dint get anything...haiz...nicholas got 6...jared got 7 man...zai bor...yuhan and i shared the 10th place...while running got lots of times want to give up liao...in the forest i was running with jared, nicholas forming a pack...i was at the back...then when we exit the forest i lag liao...slow down..then slowly pick up pace...then jackson and ian lap me...haiz...then yuhan catched up from behind...then the prize presentation got serious cock up man...the names of the top 10 all cock up...except kaiming...he damn zai ...ran 16.55mins...crazi....
so after that me,ks,jared,gwee,yuhan and daniel went to plaza singapura...went there stone for a while then decided to go watch movie...we watched the 1120h white chicks...
the movie was ... hahaha...ok la....after that we go makan...then tot of wanting to go pick saga seeds...but no time...yuhan had to leave...so we went home....haiz...play gb 1 hour liao....veri sianz...nth to do...games day seem fun...hope i get to participate in either the field or the street soccer....dunno....so now wat to do...damn sianz
tmr lessons dunno do wat....dotz
lets go.....SHOPPING! (O_O)

2004-10-19T16:29:00.000+08:00

im sianz.... sianz of sianz-ing.....haiz.... went to school today for the HAT award interview...dont know wat it will be....hope i get it....
come home and stone
so basically im sianz

piang

2004-10-18T22:05:00.000+08:00

went to school suposedely to run...in the end spent the morning playing chapteh....LOL...play and play and play again...then went to see science paper... i tink its ok...and wencong got a1....gd job man...then went for eng...then chapteh again...all the way to 1.30pm...dotz...so we went to my house...put bag then go run....
haha.....sunny brought his frens back....noisy bunch of ppl....haha
btw...pls work on ur presentation....it sucks man....oops...realii...listen to wat i tell u...i did countless ppt liao
so now basically sianz diao

conflict again

2004-10-17T22:59:00.000+08:00

woke up late today....should have met jared gwee and yuhan at macritche...sorri guys.... they ran then went to makan with gwee and go his hse play...nvr tell me....no good one...jkjk....my fault la...
went jb today....damn sianz...
yesterday open hse was bad....veri bad...onli bout 300 over parents came...haiz... it was screwed up....i tink we have let the school down....but nevertheless gd job to the ot...not ur fault....
conflict again...but it seems serious this time....how????.... internal conflict is the hardest to solve, but oso the one with the worst consequences...attacking from within it would decapitate the body's internal organ...causing the body to break down....this must be solved quick...
et tu?

hiax

2004-10-15T21:44:00.000+08:00

today went to school at 930...then waited for the chinese paper to end to find jared and the rest... then to find yuhan had to pass my class rite... then they saw me... *bish* i was grabbed from the back...then hong da was pulling my hair...pratically got hoot by my class...but luckily escaped unscathed.... so later it was decided that they going queensway...i cant go...got meeting later...so we decided later i meet them at j8...meanwhile went to play soccer with me classmates... long time nvr play together liao... so i met shiwei at the terraces later..then we went LT4 together...
the briefing was quite lame...reading the names of the ppl.... we can read la.... then later went to be further briefed...sianz diao...
left sch at bout 145pm...and when i was at the bus stop...i didnt realize kq and sy were there...so i jus boared the 74 bus... so i could transfer to 156 at macritche...hoping it would be faster...in the end had to wait for bout 15mins at macritche for 156...and kq, sy and daniel's fren was there...then later received a call from yuhan...call me double up... so once i reach j8...pia to the cinema... then realized we watching another movie later.... new police story... so went to walk j8
me and daniel went to the foodcourt to tok with them...and soon ks came... so later we went to watch the movie
the movie was damn zai...farnie at the same time... action packed...worth the ticket.
then after that we went to stadium to run
dint know that i had offended her...sorri...i dint know that u were waiting... u called me and tok then later say bye..nvr said anything...so i dint realize anything...sorri... my fault... dont be so angry kay?
so later chong went home...me jared daniel and ks went j8 foodcourt settle dinner
then go home...
tmr got open hse...ncc not doing anything...haiz....dunno wat it will turn out lyk...
sorri again

yeah! 14 liao

2004-10-12T21:37:00.000+08:00

todae me 14 bdae... passed lyk a normal day... morning met jared and zhixing at macritche...went to run 4.8km... and we did it in.... 19+ mins!!! can u believe it!.... first try sia...we gonna pia training once friday comes...top 5!!!! and jared..thanks for ur present...rocks man.... FIR rocks... u rock!!!!
so later we went to bishan mac...again...haha...when eat finsih....ks sms..."where u" i say we j8...he say he wanna come...i say we leaving...so we left...dunno where he goes after that... all the best dude... so i reached home and practically stoned in front of the tv.... so decided to use the laptop....then my dad woke up.... and keep nagging and nagging and nagging me to go out.... so bo pian have to go la... if not cant imagine how to spent the rest of the day.... go out makan after i was sleeping in the car all the way home...lol....so reach home play gb.... =_="
so a bdae just passed lyk that... wat to expect...used to it liao.... thanks sy and kq again for ur present...thanks a lot... so cute the bear...

now gonna prepare OD for MRP.... now they say can bring scripts...so gonna elaborate lyk siao

wounds have healed...things have patched.... now for the ultimate goal

relaxing

2004-10-11T20:45:00.000+08:00

ppl endure! onli 2 more papers to go! after that can slack liao...

today is shiwei bdae.... so ke lian .... have to mug for maths.... relax dude.... it will be over soon.... so work towards it....

went out today....

came home today...

now slacking today....

this few days .... withdrawal symptons setting in liao.... too long no NCC liao.... 1 word.... ENDURE..... endure 1 week liao... continue enduring

must train for x country liao.... aim for the best...for NCC and for 2E....prove to others im not wat they tink.... prove the rest the NCC reign supreme.... no one is gonna despise us... tmr going to macritche to train with jared.... must train hard... i tink jared and yuhan can get top 5.... look at them.... i tink they will onli lose to kaiming and jeremy..... maybe can win jeremy.... so we are gonna go for it...

bout 3 more hours and 1 year older liao.... that means 1 more year to NCO liao... that means sec 3 liao

toking bout sec 3.... i still dunno wat special program to choose??? dilemma man... go maths and science is ok with me...but all da projects and crap....veri sianz...then go BSP.... oso fine with me... but have to leave country for 3 months.... MEANS NO MORE NCC ----> CANT LIVE WITH THAT SORT OF WITHDRAWAL SYMPTONS! .... then humans.... have to take lit leh.... i do not like lit that much...

so is either maths and science, BSP, Humans... or maths and sciecne and BSP.... but surely no BSP and humans one;

so .... let fate decide

wee...gd luck ppl

2004-10-07T22:56:00.000+08:00

holidays for me liao....but not for my gd frens....endure my fellow mates...1 more weeks and its over.... gd luck all ya ppl

im now sitting in front of the laptop.... tv on....radio on...basically just .... STONING.... man duo things to do...haiz... how am i going to survive the week.... nvm...take this time to train my physical.... go macritche everyday to run....song bo.... haha...

supposed to do a maths project... want to do smth related to da vinci code...wow...that book rocks man....

ha.... wat can i say... dont feel like sleeping so early... haiz...tmr maybe going to school...if they want me to come la... so thats all la

sianz diao

2004-10-03T15:12:00.000+08:00

haiz...thie weekend so sianz... 2 days all stay at home... yesterday yuhan came...did chinese and science...then lunch break followed by... gunbound.... faints... STUDY LA... but nvm... so after that went j8 with him... look for love hina... in the end he bought 13 and 14 in chinese... haha... at comics connection saw the naruto vcd chinese version... nice man... naruto is just too cool... haha... then come home play game and do a little work...

morning wake up...then do unseen prose... ji sianz... so played gb... now going to do my council stuff liao...bb

soon

2004-10-01T23:23:00.000+08:00

quite some time since i last blogged. Was busy with the ProEd Leadership Camp. Hope it will run successfully. So far so good... pray hard... these few afternoon was spent either tuitioning yuhan or tuitioning dijie, kengwei and yuxuan. Tmr yuhan coming to my place in the morning...hope it will be a productive one....cant get distracted now...yuhan had better live up to my expectations...

hm... wat can i say now.. there's nothing we can do now...

managed to borrow the da vinci code from andrew...thanks dude... nice story man... how i wish that there would be a movie on it...haha...surely nc16 one...lol...but nvm....

keep getting niaoed by xianyou again..."miracle guy".... man miracle...stop it la... haiz.... and i tink some1 bu shuang me...haiz....and yuhan stop doodling on my book!!!

nvm...settle that with him tmr...kk

aiming for revenge

2004-09-26T22:08:00.000+08:00

woke up still thinking bout orienteering com...haiz...such a pity... but this feeling has turned into vengence...haha... im gonna make the next batch win... they will...
woke up at bout 10...haiz... breakfast then went to do erm... the HAT and the appraisal...then after that lunch at slept awhile...started work onli at bout 2.45 so do a while at bout 4 went to play badminton..haiz....came back then went out for dinner... went to fish and co.... reminded me of wat clt weizong said...haha...he and snr william.. lol... had a nice meal...then went carefoour... me and chong thinking of wat to get jared... sh... dont tell him...
ha...and i just realized today that shiwei bdae was onli 1 day before mine!...o.O...lol.... happi very early bdae...haiz
wat to do now..the remainded of the term will be spent on council and ncc stuff... and some peer tutoring grps...haiz...
another year has come to an end again....
hope to appeal to mr liew to appeal to HQ... fuked up HQ.... doubt they will do much..considering their efficiency...if i was the SAF personal in charge of NCC... i would fire those slackers and attituders... but we will complain until they agree

2nd day of depression...80%sad 20%revenge

despicable...

2004-09-26T01:01:00.000+08:00

angry...sad...disappointed...depressed...vengeful...thats wat im feeling now...orienteering com was a big screw up...we didnt even get the top 5 for our route...y...cos of 1 bleedy checkpoint and a group of bastards saboing us... we were all perked up and ready to win the com today...we had the ability to win...then all because of 1 bastard... we lost everything...here's y

we got of to a little confusing start...counldnt determine where we were...but after a while of exploring...we soon found ourselves on the map...so we pia and pia and pia... result?... 5 checkpoints in 28 mins...so we continuing piaing... when we reached the last checkpoint it was 29mins... but who could have thought that someone would sabo us... we were there for like 30 mins before we finally gave up and went back...if it was there...we could have completed it in 35mins... fastest group to come back....but because of the bastard who saboed us... feeling like killing him...same time we were disappointed...we were supposed to win...we should have won...haiz..... everyone was feeling down after that...

HQ has a lot of serious improvements to do... they should place a clt at each checkpoints... then easier to spot cheaters...then the checkpoints would not go missing... and how stupid can they be tying the checkpoint with string

we are all depressed...but in our hearts we are the real winners... they have inccured our wrath...next year...i swear we are gonna whoop them... now all's left to shooting

buckled up and ready to go

2004-09-24T20:02:00.000+08:00

im gonna get champion in my orienteering competition tmr!!!!
im gonna get champion in my orienteering competition tmr!!!!
im gonna get champion in my orienteering competition tmr!!!!
im gonna get champion in my orienteering competition tmr!!!!
im gonna get champion in my orienteering competition tmr!!!!
im gonna get champion in my orienteering competition tmr!!!!
im gonna get champion in my orienteering competition tmr!!!!
im gonna get champion in my orienteering competition tmr!!!!
im gonna get champion in my orienteering competition tmr!!!!
im gonna get champion in my orienteering competition tmr!!!!
im gonna get champion in my orienteering competition tmr!!!!

YES I CAN!
another 11 hours and i will be at pasir lebar BCTC military camp for my orienteering competition...24 hours and ticking...all 3 weeks of training...all 3 weeks of endurance...all 3 weeks of hoping, attaining and achieving all boils down to this...me must not fail again...the legacy will be broken tmr...we will be marching during SYF...yes we will...we have the potential...we have the determination...its now the time to prove to the rest that TCHSNCC is not pushover...countdown timer is ticking...we are getting tensed every passing minute...we will achieve...we have to achieve...we must achieve...we CAN achieve...

nothing on my mind now other than this... nothing more ... getting the best... no less that gold...jared...pray hard that ur birthday will be a nice one...u gotta treat us man... cos it WILL be a nice one... im going to put in not my 101%...but my infinite%.... we have nothing to lose...we've come so far...onli 1 last stride left...

90mins
full army gear
maps and compass to guide us
60 teams of 4 or 120 teams of 2
5 routes( 4 boys to girls)
5 route champions
1 overall champion
let the race begin

for honour and glory... and for myself...the OC team...the PART...the NCOs...the CLTs...the COs...the company...the unit...the school...TCHSNCC NCC... we can make it

10 hours and 58 mins and counting

tensed up

2004-09-23T21:59:00.000+08:00

onli 2 days to the day... the day that we will be able to once again prove our company's hopes...the day where we will help the school achieve the glory...the day where there can be no failures...nothing but endurance...all the hopes are on us... we cannot let them down... no we cant... for honour and glory... thats the spirit...

Saturday is orienteering com liao... last training today at bukit timah hill...all tensed up...the whole company's hopes are on us... and we arent going to let them down...we will endure forward...for us...for the part...for TCHSNCC... we will do it...yes we can... after 2 weeks of intense training... we are up to the task... no more physical preparations can be done...now its all up to the mind... belief is wat we need...am sure we have it...going through all the things in my mind...i hope i dont screw up on that day...my decisions can either make or break the champions...the map reader has an important responsibility...1 worng move and i just screw up all our chances...but im NOT going to let that happen... i wont...trust me... this competition is like my pride... take it as a bdae present to u jared...it will come true...the dream is going to become reality...
With exams and MRP behind my mind...im onli focused on this now...after confirmation...this is all im left with... the icing of the cake... if this happen and i know it will happen...it will almost be a perfect year for me... haiz...we MUST do it... All the trust on us...the hopes...yes, it might be heavy...but its worth the while... we are not going to throw away the load halfway... we are going to endure...endure... for nothing less...
aim for monday's flag-rasing... not the competition...monday's flag rasing anouncement will tell the school if we failed... we are not going to let TCHSNCC go down like that...TRUST me that i will do my best...and i can ENSURE that all of us will do our best... we can do it....
quote from gwee:" Determination+Endurance+Stamina+Teamwork = WE CAN DO IT!"
im sure this equation will work out... it will... if not its not an equation if its unbalanced... all the criteria will be fulfilled and the final product will be achieve...
all we need now is to cling on to it.. endure for onli 2 more days...psych up...visualize the vision... we cannot fail...failure is not in our vocab...and i know we can do it...we CAN...

the showdown is just 2 days away... wish us luck...

hiong man

2004-09-21T22:27:00.000+08:00

today went to run 8.8km in the school...wonder if thats hiong... run with a little rain...the feeling damn shuang...my clothes all soaked... haha...we took 44 minutes... is tat good...dunno... onli me jared and zhixing ran...
maths today realized that have to go tutor xianyou and wencong... does that mean im exempted??? dunno.... today basically veri sianz day in sch... double science here leow talk crap...but a little disgusting man... then assembly... then later history... loved the show man... it rocks...but have to do a ws and ppt... ws is not the prob...its the ppt.... then later english we did the final draft... she finally finised marking MRP.... die...still got lit ppt haven do yet... wat the hell

haiz... we must win the competition man...

4 days to go.............................

maybe i should start to rest...

2004-09-20T19:10:00.000+08:00

hmm... spend the whole weekend learning chinese and maths...haiz.... on saturday went to sch in the morning to train for orienteering... yuhan cant go... grounded....=.=... so we went to the track to do some running, sprinting and jogging... after that we decided to go exploring... at first we intended to go namly a few rounds...but run halfway came to a pipeline...so decided to explore...in the end came out at cornwall gardens... then continue running all the way to farrer road man... there we were a bit lost... then gut feeling we run to the right... so run run run in the end reach until holland village man... from there were continue running all the way to 6th avenue and back to schooll....haha..such a fun time exploring... so after that went home... parents went to PTG... they told me that a parent told hon that some uniform groups punishments are too tough... then gwee told me he refering to NCC.... >.<....

then today went to run too... run halfway not even 1km.... fell down and had a bruise... then blood kept flowing...haha...so we continued running all the way up namly hill then back to school... after that did rounds round the track... in school today was crap... teachers were drilling and drilling...sian diao...

NCC 4ever....

5 days to orienteering

oh it was sad...

2004-09-17T21:01:00.000+08:00

haiz...today so sad... training ended at 4... haiz... y must ppl always want to pon training... today went to staff room and saw xuanyi, nic, dingjie and huijie talking to warren liew...wanting to cancel training... so i got ks and we went to see them... yuhan and the rest were there too...after discussion...training will end at 4... fun rite...1 and half hours train wat... so 2.30 we falled in ..then we had a discussion with warren liew...regarding our part... not much was said... quote "those who are unhappi are not here"... so wat can u infer... today training onli 19 ppl came... 19 out of 33 man... haiz... and wats irony was that those who were there asking for liew to cancel training were not even there... then y bother to ask him to shorten training... those who were here wanted training lor... u are depriving us lor... if u dont want to come..then y must u make us suffer with u...i know i may seem niaoing them.. but its not my fault... i hope this can be solved soon... haiz....

this weekend lots of muggin man... must go learn chinese spelling...ji sianz...then must revise for maths test ... will affect exemtpion...so must study...and lastly have to do the freaking SANA logbook and poster...haiz

when will all this problems end...when will all this conflict end ... WHEN... i need answers... will this persist all the way to NCOs...i hope not.. if not it will spell doom for TCHSNCC or HCINCC... then it will be no more....

pain.....

2004-09-16T17:27:00.000+08:00

arg.... withdrawal symptons are here again...arg.... pain..... long time no ncc... 2 days no ncc liao.... haha

these few days not much action... haiz... yesterday was like...falling alseep in class... but pe was good... we ran 3 rounds round driveway... yuhan and i came in 4th and 5th.... first 3 ppl were crosscountry ppl leh... then afternoon...should have meeting for ProEd Leadership Camp..then cancelled...then resumed again... haha...in the end 4 ppl came... me daryl alfred and shuren... settled some important issue

today might be better... went to outgate today with chong for morning duty today...jared was not here... y??... stay at home and practise piano... =_=... then we spent the time talking bout running and soccer shoes... guan chiang got a new gel-kayano... haha... then later got maths...at least cleared some misunderstanding bout trinogometry... cheam man... then eng spent time talking bout being fat...lol...science started on new chapter... hehe.... then lit do fat again... got back the new report card...haiz...still got mistake.... IH ACE haven add projects day...so onli 15...when it should 20....lol...then later double malay ok la

after school talk cock...klkk..then go home lor...haiz...

last day at ep3 block

2004-09-14T20:41:00.000+08:00

haiz... tmr onwards... no more ep3 block... haiz...my beloved ep3 block... OH it was so sad....it was so sad... no more place to change liao... no more "fall in at ep3 block at 2.30".... memorable memories... but NCC even leave ep3 block zai-ly... other ep3s last minute than moved their stuff over...even students union... but NCC leh? early move liao... all the rifles were like moved last week... efficiency man... move like lightning

today mdm limsp came to class after school... told those who were in class that got 8 ppl exempted... and i was 1 of them!!!yeah!!!... no need mug chinese liao... so today basically a veri siAnz day... almost fell asleep many times in class...especially the first 2 double science man... leowry was like making me sleep...talking bout wat colours... even xian you knew that i was sleepy... recess finally came... so we eat and sit at the table talk cock...then go to the auditorium... hon talk bout the new special programmes... dunno which to do leh... haiz... let fate choose la... so after that joseph sim talk bout NYAA...then i realized how easy NYAA would be for us man... lets see the CIP part can write morning duty... 1 day 30 mins... 1 week 2 and half hours... 1 month 10h... haha... then camping part done liao... then skill development... ceremonial drill la... got arms drill, precision DRILL squad, stationary drill and marching drill ... lol... then physical development got orienteering leh... so basically all done... haha

today orienteering training... we ran to mgs and made a turn and then ran back...took bout 40 mins... haiz...still too slow... and we were supposed to take another route..lol... and shuo xian got his feet injured....recover fast...competition coming liao...then after that did half launches... whah.... must endure man.... 1 min 15 secs each leg ...will die man...after that training end...

then we stayed at ep3 block talk cock...ks was there too.... then go home lor... haiz...

lets all remember ep3 block in our hearts

si bei sianz

2004-09-12T21:52:00.000+08:00

haiz...super de duper sianz man...whole day super sianz sia...

yesterday veri tired...morning had serious orienteering training in long 4... but damn zai man... we ran 5 rounds round the drive way in 37 mins...improvement la... but can be improved... after that we did launches on the terraces...so after that leg of cos pain la... so break then later NCOs annouce the ppl in the orinteering com..
Jared, yuhan, gwee, zhixing, me and xuanyi... but dunno y xuanyi say he dont want...so left 5 ppl in the orienteering com...
NEXT AIM: WIN THE ORIENTEERING COMPETITION 2004!!!!!

so after that we realized that afternoon training was cancelled... due to some bleedy 5-day week scheme by our dear PM...so in the end we had self training... did SOC and then played soccer lor...

so after that went home..half dead...haha... sat at the laptop... watching TV... then went to make dinner... no one was at home except me... so eat finish then continue the com lor... then family come home... then i slack on the sofa until like 12mm cos watch soccer... SHIT!!! MANU drew with BOLTON... haiz.....

then today woke up and realized its the last day of e holidays (too late rite)... then got lots of work haven done...science ws, maths ws, eng work... chinese revision...ji sian ...so woke up...eat...then start mugging...haiz... eat lunch... continue mugging... radio and cd player was on all the time...haha...cant study without them...then later went for a swim with bro and amanda... come home eat dinner ... slack

have to prepare for tmr man... haiz..ji sianz

10 hours to school

ENDURE...ENDURE...ENDURE!!!!

2004-09-10T22:12:00.000+08:00

NCC sucks....it seriously sucks... i hate nCC... this is a confession from the bottom of my heart... sorry to keep it from u guys...i cant stand it anymore!!!!....

if u just believed it... then u must not know me well... well... thats a lame joke.... =.="

*pain* man....dying in *pain*... no la...not so jialard... now my leg muscles hurting man...cant seem to even walk properly...that means my muscle growing...good... after thursday intense training... haiz...dunno if can survive tmr's training...whole day sia... shuang man... but must ENDURE!!...morning go do orienteering training..then lunch break after that drills... whoa... how to do drills... i tink henta-kaki will kill man...how to lift legs 90 at that pace when ur thigh hurts...but nvm.... ENDURE!!!... after that sure got sense of achievement... NCC ROXS MAN!!!

today went out with jared, gwee and andrew to cineleisure to watch movie... met at orchard mrt...when should have met at sommerset...lol...so we walked there, hurting... all the legs all pain pain man... we went to check the tickets...then gwee told us have to leave by 4pm....wah lao...watch wat crap when the earliest is at 2.55pm...haiz... so we went to foodcourt to makan first... discuss...then decided to watch garfield which ended earlier...at 4.15... the movie was so damn farnie man... somemore the garfield eyes so big lol

btw...at cineleisure went going up the escalator...guess who i met... anthea and zhijun and their frens were going down the escalator.. i was on the phone...then suddenly heard someone say "hey stanley!" I was like...huh? who said that...then i saw anthea and zhijun...said hi...i was going up..they were going down...haha...so qiao..,

so tmr my endurance will be put to the test... so ENDURE !!!

tired?...SURELY

2004-09-09T22:15:00.000+08:00

whew...wat a tiring day... went to school in the morning for NCC orienteering training...in no.4...ran to KAP and back...bout 5.5 km... we took bout 55 mins... haiz...disappointing man... but ENDURE!...will and must work harder...stopped a few times along the way...better reduce the frequency of stopping man... after that went for a series of launches at the terraces. ..tat felt better... me and gwee were like singing "Knock it down" along the way...haha...but singing helps during launches...forget bout the pain...

so after training i went to orchard to meet kelvin and the others for lunch...after that went to his place to play com...wah so slack... then eat dinner and go home lor

self training no more... term 4 coming...not many want to come...and sgt lujie said that want, must every1 come...so i guess that self training will come to a temporary pause...

this holiday is a total crap...have not studied anything during the holidays...feel guilty man..haiz... whole day play, tok cock and do the proed leadership camp...nvr learn chinese...lol....

looking forward to sat's training man... morning 9 go there for orienteering training...then later 2.30 go have part training...si bei song man....

4 days to sch....

passed my SANA...so wat

2004-09-07T20:41:00.000+08:00

today marked the end of the damn damn damn sianz SANA course...i wonder y in the blue hell did they implement that into NCC...nvm...i passed the test...so what...all the other 159 ppl in the LT oso pass...lol...but...still got stupid pratical assignment to do...aiyah...any how do oso can one la...considering HQ's *fast* efficiency...i can expect my badge to come...at the end of the year...so today the course ended at like 2.45... but before they let us know the results...they played a lame joke... their so called performance... after it..the whole LT was pratically. *Frozen*... the instructor say wat every1 fail...onil 1 pass...then act veri serious like tat... then suddenly scold one SCLT..then the SCLT scold back... their conversation was something like that:Instructor: ClT! Please respect me.Dont talk when im talking!SCLT: Fine lor (something like tat)Instructor: What did u say!SCLT: nothingInstructor: Whats with ur attitude. Talk to me like that. I complain to HQ then u know..SCLT: complain lorInstructor: U! Get out of here! I dont want to see u!
then the SCLT left the room lor... then later the instructor talk a how lot of crap... then ask who nvr study..onli a few raise hand... then he smile and say...thats y all pass what... then the whole room was like ... "LENG"... lol...but before that i knew something was wrong la... where got SCLT talk to sir like that...surely fake one la...then got 2 cresent girl NCO were like covering their mouths and laughing...tink i dunno...but nvm...good try... give them 1 MEGA-Ultra LAME clap... *CLAP* LAME!
haha...so after that took the bus with yuhan and went home lor...by that time is bout 4 liao...so did some PrOEd council stuff then go and slack lor...basically im slacking now...feel damn farnie man... y am i not studying...lol...better study tmr man...haiz..tmr still must go to Pasir Ris park in the morning to recee the place for ProEd Leadership camp... but nvm...hope that takes up the morning...but come to tink of it... wat can i do in the afternoon...so damn boring... i tink i will suffer from withdrawal symptons... due to lack of NCC...
i learnt a new drug today man...

CONFIDENCIAL : Highly classified information

NAME: NCC
Scientific name: TCHSNCC PART B / PDS
EFFECTS: once taken, the abuser will be veri high and will forget all his worries. The abuser will also be more lively and find more meaning to life. BUt overdose of it will cause the abuser to lose interest in everything else. If he does not have it, he will find that life is veri sianz.
Description: Comes in a part of 33 ppl, meeting most fridays.
Proccesing: through lots of tekan sessions under the fire, they are gruelled for 1 3/4 years. The longer it is grilled, the better the effect.
Penalty: None. Once hooked, cant be cured

SANA is lame...but still have to complete

2004-09-06T19:00:00.000+08:00

today just wasted the 1st day of me holiday at singapore poly...went there for the SANA course for me badge... si bei sianz...spent the whole day in the LT... 1 lecture after another ...total of 2 lectures... all basic knowledge... when we went there in the morning alreadi bad start lor... give the SCLT kaobei... the first lecture lsated all the way to lunch...the onli gd thing bout today is the lunch...the food at singapore poly is nice...they even got a mac there... and it is CHEAP man... so after that...2nd lecture...all the way to 3.30...then had grp discussion on tmr's performance... so me and yuhan pratically just sat there and stone stone and stone... LOL

tonite must "mug" for tmr's test... lol...got MCQ, true and false and 1 ESSAY question... must get 95% to pass leh... the book ji cheam...dont even feel like reading..

holiday is NCC week man... Mon and Tues go SANA, then WED got training (might be late), Thurs and Sat got orienteering training... on top of that still got the ProEd camp preparation to do...so hope i can finish it asap

7 days to sch..

w00t...u call that PDS...

2004-09-04T23:25:00.000+08:00

crap...cant believe wat i saw today...went for e army open house...then got PDS performance by .... DEYI SEC... and... it SUCKS...sorri to them...but seriously... that is nothing... u have just thrown away the face of NCC PDS in front of the public...it is not even worth performing in CHS...and here they are performing in open house..WTF...y dont we get the chance...seriously...im not being arrogrant...but we are way better than them

talking bout open house..today went to open house with ks, jared, shuoxian, shiwei, xuanyi etc... woohoo open house rocks man... played with the new rifle today... SAR 21... its much better than m16...lesser recoil... and no ALIGNMENT!!!... then we go play urban warfare...lol...something like FIBUR...after that we go to the IPPT section... did 11 pullups at the pullup challenge... the top for schools was 27...im sure he chao keng want... then we went to do sit ups... see can do how many in 1 min...i did 50...then we realized that 2 chs guys came here and did 60 and 61 respectively... whoa... so after that we went to watched the parade with the sucky pds then went around at the exhibition...saw a artic...whoa so damn heavy man...after that we took e shuttle bus to the adventure race and the live firing... the life firing there bao man...have to wait 1 and half hour just to shoot 5 rounds...lol...so in the end we went to do e adventure race...similar to SOC or MOC la...we completed it damn fast man... at the wall which is lower than e hwachu wall saw some cresent girls NCC trying veri hard to climb the LOW wall...wah lao...they still using a small box to push them up...still cannot cross....lol... did it in 3 secs...haha...then later at e suicide window...1 sec done...the cresent nCC took like hell long lor
so after that we waited for e shuttle bus lor...went the bus came...we were boarding the bus ...then a group of cresent NCC were behind us...saying wat we not gentlemen or those crap...wat we nvr let them go first... CRAP... WHOLE LOT OF CRAP... who they think they are...

so this ends a veri eventful day

ARMY OPEN HOUSE ROCKS!!!

Now its time for me to rest

2004-09-03T20:59:00.000+08:00

Term 3 finally over liao... results can la...bloody sch admin... print my results alwayd wrong...f la...

WEEHEE....TCHSNCC has gotten in to the ORIENTEERING COMPETITION.... YEAH!!!! ... SO NOW WE ARE RUNNING IN THE COM!!!... the trophy will come back to us...it will...yes it will

today no NCC training...the sec 3s had to go to the army open house...so we had self training... and coincidently...part a had self training... as execpted...the attendence was ... erps... but nvm...gd try... Sir weizhong came by..so he went for training with us... after MUCH discusion..those in the orienteering went for 2.4 run... and MIRACOUSLY... i broke my personal best... by.... 1min7secs...woohoo...my time was 10mins 45 secs...ain that gd more a person my size

tmr got meeting in the morning... for the ProEd Leadership Camp...i will try to make it short and sweet. than rush off for PDS training...after that we going to the army open house... so fun man... cant wait for it

btw...im going for e SANA course on monday and tuesday...so sad jared yuhan and qwee and ks all in 2nd batch...but nvm... cnat wait for me first course badge...hehe

today yuhan was mad bout gwee's gf...lol...she quite chio la... then yuhan saw a her pic.. and went...crazy...lol...i helped gwee print one...then later yuhan wanted gwee to intro him the gal next to lynette (gwee's gf) ... lol.... yuhan despo ah.... =.=

the problem with someone seems to be growing...and i seem to be the cause behind it... am i?!?!?!

I NEED ANSWERS!

tell me ... wat can i do now

2004-09-02T19:43:00.000+08:00

life is so sianz for me... seriously... I HAVE NOTHING TO DO NOW!... haiz... the onli thing that keeps me alive is .... NCC... definitely...
Today sch was like...*yawns*...is so damn boring...haiz...and leowry...feel like wacking myself on the head... my science all lose marks in key words... cant stand it... after sch went for nCc la... go HCJC eat...then go and play soccer then go and run namly with jared... stomach too full liao...cant run...so run awhile onli... sorri jared for not keeping up to pace...but tmr comes the serious training...
now im a little busy with the ProEd LeadErship Camp... getting the programs done and the log... i hope i can make it a successful one

now im wondering wat to do... i gonna do the maths ws later...but after that dunno wat to do

YESTERDAY

haiz...yesterday so damn boring at home... play game on the com then slack around at home...seriously nothing to do...sometimes i wonder... is sch holidays really that gd... suffered withdrawal symptons yesterday... lack of NCC man... lol...at bout 3.30 i went to toa payoh library...si bei sianz..so go there and see wat i can do lor... tried to find the yi tian tu long ji... but cant find it..dunno y...then i borrowed the art of war...veri interesting book... can be used anywhere...

at night finished the programs for the ProEd Leadership Camp

HapPi TeAcHeRs' DaY

2004-08-31T22:18:00.000+08:00

today is teachers' day...this year' s teacher's day is the busiest i had so far...morning went to school to paste the small ProEd stickers on the ProEd gifts...then went to the staff room to distribute... after that rushed my way to the clock tower to find sgt lujie and ernest...briefing us bout the orienteering com...im so happi i got in...yeah!...then after flag rasing...rushed again to the staff room to go and distribute the teachers' cash card...their presents... inside got $3 stored value... then went for the concert and slack... so sianz... the onli event that i was watching was the one when the teachers sang and act... haha.. so farnie...see warren liew and tan chee wee wear sch uni...so farnie...then lim cc and someone else become their teahcers... hahahaha :x...

after that went kranji... so sianz there...have to run the amazing race for the hutchins...australians on exchange prog...so by the time i left kranji...it was 12.30...so i rushed all the way back to hong wen... reached there at bout 1.30...met jek, philip, weilun and syn yeow... then we all went to jianrui hse to talk cock sing song and play game... then we left a tbout 5.15 and made our way back

1 more thing... i was chosen as the OS for the ProEd Leadership Camp for the non-councillors... weehee..my first OS... hope to make it nice... got my OT yesterday and am working on the programs and the working plan... have to give erik by tmr.. and see mr lim by thrus... rushed rite... so i hope i get exempted... then si bei song... got more time to work on this...

tmr dunno how to pass leh...so sianz... stay at home nth to do...but go out..with who???...so sianz... maybe i go kino...dunno...just veri sianz correct liao

haiz

have u heard the knock it down song... wah veri nice man... im going to put that as my bg music soon